+ Fragments Of My Mind +

Verbal Vitamin 14 ... The Cerebral Assassin

2011-04-22T16:36:00.001-05:00

I am not speaking of the mighty Triple H... I am speaking of the Original Cerebral assassin ...Lucifer.

http://www.markbeast.com/satan/names-of-satan.htm
I do not know what that site fully contains and therefore do not fully endorse the views and opinions contained.
I wanted the scripture pertaining to the names of Lucifer and that is what popped up.

That site has a list of the different names that Lucifer is called throughout the Bible but there is one in particular I would like to focus on. The Accuser.

Accuser
“Then I heard a loud voice saying in heaven, ‘Now salvation, and strength, and the kingdom of our God, and the power of His Christ have come, for the accuser of our brethren, who accused them before our God day and night, has been cast down.’” Revelation 12:10

ac·cuse (-kyz)
v. ac·cused, ac·cus·ing, ac·cus·es
v.tr.
1. To charge with a shortcoming or error.
2. To charge formally with a wrongdoing.
v.intr.
To make a charge of wrongdoing against another.
[Middle English acusen, from Latin accsre : ad-, ad- + causa, lawsuit.]

I received a revelation the other night and wanted to share it with those who also believe and are seeking to evolve.

If we realize that God and Satan are spirit and their respective workers , Angels and Demons are also in spirit, then we would be of the understanding that it is truly the unseen that attacks or blesses the human mind through thoughts.

In essence , The human mind is a continual spiritual battlefield in which we must constantly be on guard , know the attack plan of the enemy and how to win the battles we are in.

Ephesians 6:12
New Living Translation (©2007)
For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.

So I look at this from the perspective of Satan as the accuser. Not only accusing us and bringing on unnecessary guilt into our lives but accusing others to us and bringing on unwarranted anger or feelings towards someone else without proof. Ultimately ending in bad feelings for both parties.

One of the greatest examples that i can think of would be the spirit of jealousy.

We all know someone or know of someone who is extreme with their jealousy and most of the times the jealousy is an illusion in the mind of the jealous thinker.

But how does it start?
Whispers in your thoughts...
(With the exception of flat out visual proof or 100 percent trustworthy confirmation)

Satan is a great opportunist. If not the greatest.

Many simply attribute this to their minds being carried away...If this is the case , then who is doing the carrying?

Everything is deeper than it appears.

So a thought gets puts into the mind and the thinker has a choice to accept or deny that thought. Please remember , the mind is like a suggestion box. They are called suggestions because they do not have to be acted on , someone is suggesting that you act on what they suggested. We hold the power of choice.

Back to the example.
Say your other half has been acting a bit out of the norm.
Working late or texting more or other signs that are custom to your relationship.
The thought of cheating will eventually cross your mind.

So what do you do?
Stay patient and keep your mouth closed and eyes open?
Do you remain cool and maybe say a prayer like ..."Lord , if ____ is doing wrong , please let this darkness come to light"...

Or without proof do you confront that person with guns drawn , cause a huge scene , bring up anything that may have happened in the past , get in a huge fight , lose sleep , cause tension...only to find out that they were telling the truth the whole time...and now you got long ears...Jack ass.

What happened?
One thought or accusation was allowed to kick it in your mind and it invited some friends.
Jealousy and fear and anger are now chillin on the sofa , smack dab in the middle of your mind.

I have allowed this to happen in my past and I know damn well many people reading this have had this happen in their past or they are currently going through it.

Despite age, sex , skin color or location...there are certain things in life we all go through.

I have known people so jealous that they have physically abused their spouse on nothing more than an accusation that was planted in there minds. a thought that was allowed to grow and consume all patience , love and logic.

Jealousy is a huge issue for millions of people and once again , one of the better examples of how the enemy can infiltrate the mind.

we all know those people who are suspicious of everything. People who seemingly have a level of paranoia to them 24/7. I myself am like that to a degree. Which is why I am very thankful when this sort of revelation comes to me because it helps me grow as a human being.

Here is what I was blessed with...

The way to determine if what you are feeling is legitimate is to ask yourself where you are feeling it at.
The enemy works in the realm of the mind. God can be felt in the spirit , mind , heart , and gut...

I have used this example before and will continue to do so....

Whether you believe in God or not ,we have all had an overwhelming feeling at one point or another.
The feeling that caused you to stay home or be quiet or swallow your fear and speak or go to this place or fill out that job application....Those times in your life where you just felt it to the core of your being.
When you listened to that feeling , you were somehow blessed or avoided drama , when you didn't follow , you paid some sort of price...That inner being was communicating with you. If it's not God , then who else is looking out for you like that? Your instincts took over? In advance? Those feelings come from somewhere ladies and gentlemen. People call it intuition or 6th sense , etc...they call it everything but what it is.

So , if you feel it in your heart , your spirit or your gut...That is confirmation it is from God.
If what you are feeling only stays in the realm of your mind , it is more than likely the accuser trying to disrupt you peace in some way.

1.Peter 5:8
Be vigilant, watch. Your adversary the devil as a roaring lion walks about seeking whom he may devour.

If we can get to know what we are feeling and where we are feeling it and get in solid tune with the spirit within , this will eradicate a huge portion of the drama that goes on in our lives.

To understand how the enemy attacks and know when we are being attacked. And to know that if you resist the devil , he will flee from you... The name of Jesus in the spiritual realm is like kryptonite to the dude in blue tights...Don't be afraid to use it !

To be patient enough not to judge or accuse without any solid evidence other than the accusations that were presented to us in thought form.

If you are in tune with your spirit , you will know when something isn't right...You will feel it completely , the Lord will let you know what's happening in some way shape or form.

So the next time a thought pops into your mind and tries to take you the distance...Ask yourself where it's coming from and where you are feeling it at.

"I'm feeling all over my body that your full of crap !"

Then I get the feeling this message wasn't for you.

Peace !
God Bless !
Scott Johnson
4/22/2011
4:16 PM

And the prophet ALSO says ...

2010-09-07T23:56:00.004-05:00

On Friday September 3rd , 2010 I went back to the Church where I had a prophetic reading in November of 09.
This took place at the "Embracing his grace" church building in Bedford , Tx.

I took a friend out there this time to experience what I had experienced and get a word from the Lord over their life.

We both got blessed with what was spoken over us.

If you have no earthly idea what I am speaking about,Please check out the writing from my first trip.
http://prosperousmind.blogspot.com/2010/04/and-prophet-says.html

And here is what was spoken over me this time around.

The word was being spoken over us in the Sanctuary.
There were four female Prophetic ministers.
Two of which spoke over me ...

Minister #1

" The Lord said he is opening up a river to you and is doing a new thing in the area of your vision. But theres been a wall of resistance thats come against you.
And the enemy has been speaking and said that you cannot press through that wall.
But now theres going to be a super electric charge within your spirit man thats going to say , Rise up son , Rise up son , Rise up for the victory is at hand.
I'm going to send you through that wall . I'm going to send you through that troop and I'm going to call you to the other side and I Am going to deliver you into the fullness of what I have called for you to do.

And the enemy has been coming against your finances and I see where theres just been like holes in your pockets and the moneys just been falling through and you couldn't retain it. And the Lord says that I AM putting a stop to that. I'm going to give you wisdom and direction on how to be the steward that I have called you to be.

For I see you being like a big ship parked in the middle of a dock and many coming in to gather and to glean from that which has been imparted to you from the lord's bounty. And Father I charge him right now in the name of Jesus. I charge him right now in the name of Jesus with the wealth of your spirit. I command the spirit of Fear to go right now in the name of Jesus and the spirit of Insecurity right now to go in Jesus Name. "

And then the second minister spoke over me.

"And the Lord says there is a positioning even when you stood up and you said Lord I am Hungry. That stand ,You were reaching , You were stretching and the Lord says I honor you for that. I honor you because you are standing and reaching for me.
And the Lord says I have a place for you where there are teams waiting for you. There are men teams waiting for you. There are men on your right and men on your left and the Lord says I desire that you come into a team anointing in your life.

The Lord says there many things you'll lead out in but there are still people joined to your right and to your left and the Lord says stand in and among them. Like a Man's man.
The Lord says I'm going to clothe you . I see sleeves of armor , like new sleeves of armor like shimmering silver being put upon you and the Lord says you will stand among men.
The Lord says those days that you felt that there was not enough understanding and that you couldn't trust to go into that type of team , God says I'm going to armor you , I'm going to sleeve you, I'm going to use silver swords in your hand.
And the Lord says just as you stood before me , you are standing before my throne and I honor that. I'm going to equip you and you are going to go forward and you are going to have help Sayeth God."

Then the first woman returned and said ...

"I just wanna say one more thing. I heard the spirit of the Lord say , Your a good man and he's proud of you"

I said Thank you and God Bless and that was the end.

The only teams I can Think of that the second minister was speaking of would have to be musical management teams. I have had a very bad distrust of the industry folk and had been praying about this a day prior to going to the service.

OR

at age 36 , I will be coming off the bench for the Mavericks :)

As always , I have publicly documented my dealings with God.
I have nothing to gain from posting this up other than proving the Lord is real.

This is for his glory.'

Once again , when you see things taking place in my life and you come back and read what I have been through , How I sought it and what was spoken over me and how I documented these things , You will have a hard time discrediting God. More specifically Jesus Christ.

Not pretty white Jesus with the conditioned hair.
Not Black Jesus Mike Evans had on his wall in Good Times.

I'm talking about Rough and Rugged , Wisdom filled, Historical Jesus.

I am not forcing my beliefs on anyone, I just want you to know how I will achieve what I will achieve so after I prove it , You will believe and start to achieve in a different way.

Thank you for your time.
God Bless
Scott johnson
1:11 AM
9/8/2010

6 Feet of dirt make all Gangstas Equal

2010-04-13T15:40:00.004-05:00

Six feet of dirt.........Make all Gangsta's equal.

"To be concious that you are ignorant is a great step to knowledge"-Benjamin Disraeli

I wish I had been concious of my ignorance on may 3rd,1992.

I had just gotten out of jail that morning and I was now showing up for work that afternoon.

I walked in , shaved head, green dickie suit , Nike Cortez and proceeded to punch the time clock.
I was working part-time at a grocery store doing produce.
I was also working part-time robbing houses.
I didn't give a damn about anyone but myself and the Homies , they were more important than my family.
They in fact became my family.
And it wasn't because my parents didn't raise me right or show me enough love,I was just like most teens throughout our existence on this earth....Greedy and self-centered.

After I clocked in ,my manager comes up and says "Go to the back of the store man !"
I said "For What?"
"I'll tell you in a few minutes,hurry up and go!"
So I did,I was thinking the cops were there looking for me.

A few minutes went by and I went back on the floor to see what was up.
He told me this girl had brought her brothers in to see what I looked like.
"For what ?" I asked, He then told me "They think you were there when her husband got killed"!

"I wasn't there man!"

"Well, there after you so watch your back"!

Now let's rewind to how my manager knew for me to go to the back of the store in the first place.

A short while prior to this , A co-worker was having a get together at his apartment.
His complex was across the street from my job.

So I showed up and when I was coming up the stairs I saw my manager talking to this chick...

I said what's up and went inside and started drinking.

When he came in , he started telling me that he liked this girl , So I was like , Handle your buisness man!
This dude was real uptight and I honestly thought if he got with a girl , he would relax a lil ....

So I'm at the table with a beer in my hand telling him he needs to hook up with this girl ....

Then he says ...
" I don't know man , her husband got killed last year "

So then I switched it up , and began telling him to be cool and handle the situation with class because she had been through a lot of trauma already ... Basically , Don't use this woman ... If you like her , treat her right.

Then we started talking and drinking a lil more and he started giving me more details.

Then I put two and two together ...

" My homeboy killed that dude ! I know who you are talking about ! "

Being young and buzzed up , I blurted this out to my manager and told him the story.

The short version is this ...

A guy that was in the same gang I was , got into some beef and ended up killing this other dude , who happened to be the husband of the girl my manager was now trying to holla at.

The shooter was sentenced to ten years in the pen and the family of the victim was outraged.
Looking back , I can clearly understand why ...

Like I said , I knew the shooter ...
I went to school with him , Junior high ...
We rode skateboards , played Nintendo , shot hoops at Hugh Smith and within a few short years of those innocent times, we were both gang bangin and stealing.

But he ends up killing someone.

I wasn't there, I did not have a thing to do with it.
Didn't matter, My name got thrown in the mix anyhow and since the triggerman and myself were in the same gang , I guess that made me just as guilty in there eyes.

Shortly after it happened , I had two dudes that lived on my street and were supposedly in the same gang as the one who got shot walk up on me one day ...
They said they had heard I thought it was funny that the dude got murdered ...
I looked them both in the eyes and told them I never said anything like that ... Because I hadn't.
They said cool and walked off and that was that ... I didn't understand why they were questioning me...

Then there was another person...
We were cool with each other but he was also affiliated with the victims supposed gang and we were fighting with the gang he was in.
He called me one night telling me they were bringing in a dude from Cali to kill me , he said they wanted my head...

I had no earthly idea where all this was coming from , how MY name got so involved in something I was not a part of...

Matter of fact , I was with the shooters best friend and a couple other guys when we found out that our friend had killed someone.

We were riding around lsitening to music and smoking out and having a good time when we got the news.
We were all in shock ... Especially his best friend ... We couldn't believe it.
Now it had went from friends becoming gangstas and burglars to someone we knew actually commiting homicide ...
Hearing that had a serious impact on us ...

He took it to that other level ... A very tragic level.
Now a man is dead and our friend is going to prison.
All this happened with him in April of 91.

"You are known by the company you keep" Remember that!

Now the widow of that murdered man was a couple apartments over from where I was sitting ...

And now my manager has some information to share ...

Did he set me up ?

I don't think so , I think he just told her what he knew and she called her brothers from there.
I do not believe he intentionally told her about me to have me killed.

Did he run his mouth and betray my trust in him ? Ofcourse ...

Then again ... I should have never opened MY mouth , Youth and alcohol were to blame on my part .
I am not really sure what his motives were ...

And that is how my manager knew to send me to the back of the store when her and her family walked in...

Now let's travel back to Sunday , May 3rd , 1992...

It's now around 8:00pm...

On my break , I went out into a foyer in the front of the store to use the payphone.
I called my girl and was telling her I needed to get a gun.
I didn't have a gun because I was mentally unstable and I would have used it on myself and my woman knew that , so she talked me out of getting one several times.

We were already fighting with a gang and I am being warned Gangstas from Cali wanna kill me and now I had these people after me ... I had just gotten out of jail , I am still waiting to go to court for burglary of habitation and before all this , we had fought these other cats and a dude who was with us used brass knuckles , Now all involved in the fight are also looking at an Assault with a deadly weapon charge because of him ... I had been in a mental institution the month before and now I needed to get my hands on a gun for real because this was all starting to crumble around me.

So I am on the payphone telling my girl about the gun situation when this big fool walks in..
Straight mad-doggin me...

I knew immediately it was the widow's brother ...
So in my mind I know I am about to throw down with this dude and it's about to happen very quickly...

He walked straight up to me and said "Are you Scott Johnson?"

I said "Yeah man" and I told my girl I'd call her back , Like I said , I knew we were about to fight.

But before I could hang up the phone,he pulled out a Rambo style knife and started jabbing me with it as fast as he could.

#1 and #2 go inside my back, #3 into my left lung, #4 pierces my liver...
This all happened to me in about 6 or 7 seconds.

I gave him a solid left hook to his jaw and he stumbled back against a rail.
I stood over him throwing punches with everything in me...
This is when he drove the knife straight into my stomach , which made stab wound #5.

My vision turned completely red.

After a second or two when I could see again,I punched him again and this time he swung back with his right hand.
And that is when #6 went buried to the handle in the left side of my cheek.
I believe he was aiming for my throat ... an inch or so lower and he would have reached his goal.
Then he pushed me back and headed for the exit...

I grabbed the back of his shirt with my right hand as he was going out of the door and I was trying like hell to pull the knife out of my jawbone with my left.

I was going to stab him in the back of the head! I was going to kill him.

I was screaming and cussing and trying to pull the knife out of my jaw ,but it would not budge.
I was weak from blood loss,but my adrenaline was raging.

I held onto the back of his shirt by the neck and we ended up outside in the parking lot.
A truck driven by his brother pulled up and he rolled into the back of it .
I looked that demon in the eyes for a split second, He was as scared and shocked as I was.
I wasn't dead yet , the job didn't go as planned.

And as the tires squealed ... My murderer vanished into the darkness.

So here I am with six stab wounds in me, not to mention a hunting knife embedded in my face!
The knife went through my cheek and lodged in my jawbone,leaving the blade inside of my mouth.

Obviously this prevented me from speaking clearly so I started yelling for help the best I could.
And out of nowhere this woman grabbed my arm and started leading me back inside...
WIth a calmness and tenderness that was out of this world...

As I passed the dangling telephone reciever,I picked it up and told my girl "I'll call you later baby" and I hung up the phone.
She had heard everything ...

Now imagine this woman seeing somebody in the shape I was in and remaining perfectly calm and gentle.
This ANGEL continued to lead me inside.
She led me back through the same place I had just been stabbed and then through the automatic doors and into the store.

She helped guide me down as I collapsed on the floor, then I heard the screams.

My manager ran up with this disgusted and shocked look on his face and say's "Ah,Scott,I told you man,I told you"!!!
I just looked at him while I was coughing up blood...

I remember My other co-worker running up and holding his stomach like he was about to vomit.

I remember the lady who worked one of the registers and how horrified her face was ...

Now that I can look back ,I see a dog who has been hit by a car and is dying.
It cannot speak and express it's pain,It can only stare at you as the final breath approaches...

But the eyes... the eyes of the dying speak a million words...

That's how I feel I looked to them.
I could only speak with my eyes ... "This is it man - Why Me?!!!".

Then I saw the head manager of the store run up with the same disgusted look on his face as everyone else.
He said three words that I will never forget....

"It's Gang related".

So here is the OG ...
Coughing and spitting up blood and laying in a literal pool of blood.
I was numb,in shock,I was just staring at everyone's horrified faces and hearing their hollow screams.
I was thinking, this is it man your going to die Scott...
You will never see your family or friends or girlfriend or even your dog again , Everything you love is fading away...

I suddenly realized I had not done anything in this world and I wanted that chance again.
Oh my God ! Give me another chance ! I will appreciate it !

The lady who led me inside had disapered,she was nowhere to be found.
She didn't even come out in the newspapers when they covered the story...
All of that and the fact that she remained perfectly calm and comforting in the midst of bloody chaos is why I believe and say she was a certified angel.

And speaking of angels,The paramedics arrived.
They wrapped my head in bandages,leaving the handle of the knife sticking out.
They took a razor and cut off my clothes leaving me in nothing but my undies ,socks and Nikes...

I kept telling them that my back and stomach were killing me....

When I raised my head and looked at my stomach I saw where the serrated edge of the knife had pulled out some of my intestines ...
They loaded me on a stretcher and rushed me out to the parking lot where careflight was waiting.

As they were pushing me towards the helicopter the cops let my parents through the crowd that had gathered.
I'll never forget the look on my mom's face...Close your eyes and imagine Fear,Shock,Disbelief,Rage and Pain all in one expression.
If you can do that,then you will have an idea of what my mothers face looked like when she saw her only son laying on a stretcher under the blood soaked white sheets with the handle of a knife sticking out of her baby's face...

She was sobbing uncontrollably and saying "Your gonna be alright ,your gonna be alright baby"! Something like that..
But her eyes contradicted her words...
If the eyes are the windows to the soul , her windows were broken.

Careflight flew me to Harris-Methodist Hospital in Ft.Worth and I was rushed into surgery.
I was surrounded by Doctors and Nurses.
I was awake for awhile answering questions while they prepared to operate.

The Doctor looked at me and said "I'm going to pull the knife out of your face now,Scott...
A nurse grabbed my hand and he grabbed the handle with both hands and slowly pulled the knife out of my jawbone.
I was squeezing the nurses hand with everything I had , felt like I could have broken it.
I saw him carry the weapon,drop it in a plastic bag and seal it up.

Then entered the Morphine...

Hours into surgery, the doctor came out and told my parents ,girlfriend and friends , I was bleeding to death and there was nothing more he could do.
He said he had lost me once already and that I was bleeding from so many places the blood was coming out faster than they could put it in.
I had already been through 32 pints of blood and it was not clotting...

My mom grabbed the doctor and begged him not to let me die!

She said take GOD with you,he can pick up where you left off!

The Doctor looked at her and said "He might live another hour" .
That sounds cold-blooded but I guess he didn't see much hope.

My left lung collapsed.
My liver was completely severed.
Some of my intestines were pulled out.
My back muscles were ripped out.
70 percent of the roof of my mouth was taken off.
And to add to the drama the tip of the knife had punctured my carotid artery ,the vessel that carries blood and oxygen to your brain.

God guided the hand of the surgeons and through his grace and their skill I was eventually stable.
But it was a constant struggle for my life...
I was hemmoraging,fighting off infections and raging fevers and I went through another 25-30 pints of blood.
This is all the short version of Hell ...

The morophine kept me physically knocked out,but the nightmares tortured me and kept my mind wide awake.
I had many hallucinations that were so life like I could not tell the difference...

When I was concious enough to know what was going on,I didn't understand how someone could do this to me!
All that Gangsta S*** went out the window , Now I was the victim , Now I was just a 17 year old kid again.
I was mentally raped,depression overtook me again and it took me to a deeper and darker level.
I remember the first time I took a shower in the hospital.
I screamed and cried ... They couldn't stitch me up because of the high risk of infection.
Now my stomach was open from below my belly button up to my chest ... The sight of this was overwhelming for me.

I spent around 3 weeks in the hospital before I was released.
The ride home was terrible ... I felt every bump in the road...
My stomach was still open so we had to go through the painful ritual of cleaning the wounds...

I was still bleeding inside my head from the carotid artery and the doctors had basically said they did not know when I would hemmorage and die , only that I would ...
I could hear a swishing sound in my ear as the blood was being pumped.
Not only was this very scary but it was very irritating...
I had to have another surgery to repair the damage inside of my head ...
And I supposedly still have an aneurism in my face.
But I fully believe I am completely healed.

This bleeding in my head actually kept me out of prison and got me probation when I was able to go to court.
During that time , If I got into a fight and got hit the right way , I would have bled to death and died.
I had a very compassionate lawyer on many levels ... Thank you Sir.

The years have passed and the wounds have healed but what happened that night will never be forgotten.
The scars are a permanent reminder of a life I used to live and choices I made.
The scars are also a reminder that I am a miracle and proof of a higher power.

But I struggled greatly with this at a young age.

Truth be told , I was a criminal and drug abuser who got stabbed to death because of retalliation.
Retalliation for a crime I had nothing to do with.

I now had people all around me telling me that I am a living breathing miracle and God spare my life for a reason.
I coudn't grasp what they were telling me , It was now extra pressure on top of all I was already dealing with.

But the older I got the more I could understand and see the bigger picture and what exactly God had done in my life.
By all accounts I should be dead , I should have been another statistic for that year.

You may be wondering what happened to the dude who did this to me ...

I picked him out of mugshots several times when the police came to the hospital.
He also had his initials tatted on his arm... So that took out some of the guesswork.

The police told my mom they found the truck and they had sprayed some chemical on it that apparently illuminates when there is blood on it... The detective told her my blood was found all over it , in the bed and in the front.

He was arrested on May 15th and was charged with attempted capital murder at the age of 18.
According to newspaper reports he was released four hours later pending a court appearance.

Apparently he missed the court date ...

In febuary of 1993 , I saw him in the newspaper again.

He was involved with several others in the murder of a 14 year old.
The kid was stabbed at least 23 times and was held underneath the water at a small lake in Dallas.
The paper said they killed the kid because they were afraid he might snitch about something they had done .
This happened on June 1st ,less than a month after he stabbed me.

The kid had to be identified by his dental records ...

Now it was I , the former criminal , crying and wondering where the Justice was.
As I am now while I type this . My heart hurts.

Why was this dude set free after four hours when they had evidence he tried to kill me?
My mom was told since there was really no "Eye witnesses" the evidence was circumstantial.

Despite the fact I picked him out , despite the fact someone got a look at the truck and got partial plates , despite the fact when that truck was found it glowed with my blood ... The evidence was just circumstantial.

We were never contacted for anything concerning court and my mother was told by the detectives that they really couldn't hold him for what he did to me but the murder charges from the kid would stick on him.

Had they kept him where he belonged the first time , that kid may have never had to have suffered and died.

A few months after I had gotten out of the hospital , I was parked one night in the car with my pregnant girlfriend.
We were just talking , minding our own business.
Her ex-boyfriend pulls up ,sticks his hand out of the window and starts shooting at me.

He peels out and I chase after him... he lost me.
I end up dropping her off at her house a lil while later and as I am pulling out , he comes out of the shadows and starts chasing me.
My girl screamed and her neighbor comes out , grabs his gun and starts chasing us .
High speed chase through Arlington , apparently at shift change.
There was not a single cop in sight.

I end up losing him and he ends up getting caught and going to the pen.
Not for trying to kill me but for attempted murder on someone else , he was already wanted beforehand...

This dude was in our gang.
He used to be a friend of mine.
We all made some horrible choices during those times.

The stress of all this was overwhelming for my parents.
We ended up finding another house far away from that neighborhood.
My parents just wanted out as quickly as possible.

So we got out ...
And I never heard anything else from the authorities about the man who murdered me .
I believe we were bringing so much hell to the neighborhoods at that time , they may have even felt I got what I deserved.
Who knows the truth...

Years later I heard through the grapevine that some of the family members of my murderer said they made a mistake with me.

I dont think that qualifies as a "My Bad" moment though...

For many years I fantasized about killing that man.

I would dream of different ways to murder him...Revenge consumed me.

Then I looked at the man who stabbed me from his perspective.
He basically came in and sought revenge for the death of his family member...

for years and years this obviously was something that tormented me and due to the violent nature of the act it opened doorways for demons of all kinds...

But I asked myself this , "What if someone killed my brother in law"?

Would I seek revenge? The answer at the time was YES !
I would want to kill whoever took my family member from me and possibly whoever was involved...
Most of us would consider it and many would do it ... Many have done it.

When I put myself in the shoes of the man who did this to me...I saw why he did it.
I am in no way saying I approve of it and I am not saying his action was a correct response...
But I understood the thinking behind it ...
Even though it happened to me , I had matured to the point I could see the motive .
And I forgave him...
I now pray for him...
Honestly speaking , when this book does what it is supposed to do , one day , that man or someone connected to him will eventually read these words ...
I cannot or would not speak on behalf of the other people who suffererd because of this man.
But as for me , I had to let go of the hate...
So if your reading this or you were involved...I forgive you in the name of Jesus Christ.

Wanna hear something tripped out?
This dude and I played together as kids in the early to mid 80's.
We lived in the same apartments ... His sister dated my uncle.
I don't know if he remembered this at the time , I myself didn't find out till later .
I didn't recognize him or the name at first ...
The twist and turns of life never cease to amaze me ...
I also forgave the man who tried to shoot me...
Like I said , we were homies at one time and in the same set , I still pray for him and his family.
He got caught up as a kid and has been in the penal system ever since.
God bless him.

I had to forgive these people and everyone else that had wronged me.

Once I did this , I set myself free from THAT particular bondage and the devil no longer had control of my mind in that area.

The weight that had been on me for so many years had been removed...
The Lord opened my eyes to a whole nother level of maturity and I am very thankfull...
So I say this with all sincerity , PLEASE let that be an example to you and inspire you to forgive whoever has wronged you.

ESPECIALLY if it was just some words...DO NOT LET THE ENEMY SHACKLE YOU ANOTHER SECOND.

Call - email - text -write it down or just let it go from yourself in private if the offending person is no longer around ," I forgive you" ... Get it out somehow and move on with your life.
This does not mean you have to rekindle a relationship , hang out with or even talk to that person ever again.
What it does do is gets that person out of your mind and you free up space for some positive thoughts.

When the enemy tries to bring up the situation again , IMMEDIATELY pray for whoever offended you.
"Lord , Thank you for being with..." And watch how fast the devil flees from you ...Watch the playground clear out...
My friend told me "It is impossible to hate someone your praying for" and he was exactly right...

So I now take the second chance that was given to me and I share my wisdom with you.
I share my wisdom in the hopes that you will learn from my experiences and the horrible choices I made.
I share my wisdom in the hopes that through MY death , you will appreciate YOUR life.

You have a purpose!
God didn't create life for us to waste it.

People will sometimes tell me , "You gotta be tough to survive that"!

But technically , I didn't survive that ...

I fully give all the credit to GOD.

I was just a skinny lil white dude, even the doctor's had given up , what could I have done?
People die from a lot less...

My situation was nothing short of miraculous.
I do not say this with ego , I say it with appreciation.
I am proof a higher power exists...

So if your reading this right now and your claiming a set and you have not been stabbed,shot or beaten yet.
Recognize God has his hand on you and if you do not wake up, it will only be a matter of time before one of the above happens and I didn't even bring in the factor of the law....

I know the saying "Dead or in jail" has lost it's swag ...
But it's still the bottom line in too many lives and must be respected as a truth.

A wise man listens and learns ...
I have robbed houses, did drive-by's, and been to jail and the county more times than I would have ever wanted.
None of it shows toughness , it shows weakness , ignorance and blindness.

In 93 I got sentenced to Ten years of probation and 320 hours of community service for burglary of a habitation and assault with a deadly weapon.

As of 2003 I was fully released from my probation.

I served 10 yrs having to let someone know where I was all the time and I had to live with the fact that if I screwed up again they would send me to prison for the remainder of my time .
I can not blame anything I have suffered or been through on other people because most of my sorrow can be traced back to the choices I made.
And I have dealt with them ... I am still dealing with them.

Ever try and get a good job with a felony on your record?

Think before you act ! Every choice has a consequence... Every choice.

Choose respect and a good name ...
Choose Life ...

Con Respecto...
With Respect...
God Bless...

Scott Johnson
www.scottjohnsononline.com

VERBAL VITAMIN 7 ... WAR

2010-04-13T15:13:00.000-05:00

The last time we spoke I asked you to forgive whoever has wronged you in the past...
I pray You have done that and you have peeled off another layer of your personal mummy.
Congratulations...:)

But if you HAVE NOT done this , Let me ask you if you heard some of the following statements in your mind.

" This dude is nuts , I am not forgiving so and so..."

" No way in hell I will forgive , No way! , They will pay for what they did to me!"

"See how those who love God are soft ? Quit reading this nonsense! "

"You dont actually believe what he is saying do you?"

Ofcourse I am not writing exactly what went on in some of your minds upon reading my request for forgiveness , But I am hitting in the general area....You know what you thought , when the thought of complete forgiveness was brought up.

For some of you reading , a complete panic came over you...You have been hurt too deeply to let it go...You still havent received Justice...Your still waiting for payback.

Let me ask you this , Where do you think those thoughts are coming from?

Who would stand to benifit from keeping you in bondage to unforgiveness?

When I first started reading the word years ago , I came across ROMANS and it had a great impact on me...Particuarly chapter 7.

It showed me that what I was going through in my mind , Others were also going through and not only that , it was nothing new...

Lets check out ROMANS chapter 7 : 18-25

18. For I know that nothing good dwells within me, that is, in my flesh. I can will what is right, but I cannot do it.
19. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I do.
20. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I that do it, but sin which dwells within me.
21. So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand.
22. For I delight in the law of God, in my inmost self,
23. but I see in my members another law at war with the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin which dwells in my members.
24. Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death?
25. Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I of myself serve the law of God with my mind, but with my flesh I serve the law of sin.

When I read this years ago , A lightbulb went off in my head.
Ok , So this explains why it is so hard to live right...This explains why everytime I want to stop doing what I am doing , I have extreme difficulty acheiving my goals...

You ever make a goal for yourself?
Quitting smoking or drinking or maybe going on a diet ...For some quick examples...

This also applies to things you want to start...Eating healthier , drinking more water , reading more , working out, etc...

You find that whatever the goal is that will ultimately improve your life for the better is the hardest goal to obtain....

So the majority get depressed and say forget it and give up , It's too hard....

This usually happens the afternoon of January 1st...:)

There are a few people who stick with what they say and end up feeling great about their lives and themselves...And then they bug the hell out of you to change your ways and you either LISTEN and do it OR You avoid that person because what is inside of you isnt cool with what is inside of them...

But ask yourself , why it is so hard to become the best you can be....

What you need to realize is , we are in constant battle within our minds...
Whether or not you acknowledge it , You are in a battle for your mind everyday.

" but I see in my members another law at war with the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin which dwells in my members."

A large majority of the world are oblivious to this war and just live life with tunnel vision or they choose to accept what has been handed them in life.

There are way too many possible scenarios for the oblivious persons life.

work-home-sports-beer-repeat
work-home-club-repeat
work-club-sex-repeat

and the enemy also loves to put that fear of the unknown in you.
The fear of "IF I do this here , I cant do this anymore..."
So your fear of change ,keeps your wheels spinning in the mud.

endless possibilities and all are real lifestyles...

But if people are not made aware that they have a grander purpose in life , they will not try to acheive it.
If people are not made aware that the voice in their mind telling them they cannot acheive what they are feeling within is a LIAR , Then they will continue to live in a common fashion.

Let me clarify , Were not all meant for hollywood or the stage or to be in the public light even , But we all possess something special about us that is benificial not only to yourself and family but contributes in some positive way to humankind.

Some of you feel a calling but when you decide to take that step in that direction , That voice of FEAR comes in and tells you , You will FAIL! , They will laugh at you! ,Your friends will leave! They wont accept you!...and so you sink back into bondage , You literally allow yourself to be shackled.

When in reality , ALot of The people you fear will leave or wont look at you the same are going through the same thing you are and dont speak about it (Alot of people are living..YOU GO FIRST! Lives)

and if they dont accept what you say , Then you dont need to kick it wit them anyway , ANYONE who would give you hell for bettering yourself is NOT your friend...Lose them or be lost with them.

God did not create us to be robots or to settle...
Within each of us is a divine calling or gift...Everything is already embedded in us , it just boils down to this...Are you willing to go retrieve the gift? are you willing to GO TO WAR within yourself and fight for what God has blessed you with? Are you willing to unwrap the mummy?

Lets travel to ephesians 6:12

"For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high [places]. "

We turn to Dr.Phil and Oprah instead of Psalms and Proverbs.

The WAR...

The old visual of the devil on one shoulder and the angel on the other is alot more realistic than we think it is.

Ok Mr.Johnson , How do we fight this then?

ephesians 6: 13-17

"13. Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
14. Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; 15. And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace;
16. Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.
17. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: "

READ and Communicate and Believe and you will be equipped to fight the battle.
Once you start doing this , You will begin to transform into who you were born to be , God will start revealing your purpose to you...SEEK

"I just dont know what to do with my life...I dont know why I'm here..."

Take my advice and discover why you are here...
Everyone has a different talent , right now my job is to get you to realize this and recognize where it comes from.

Start paying attention to and challenging the thoughts you have in your mind...
Question where they are coming from and look at them with logic.

We all have 3 voices in our minds at one time...

Call it what you want , I'll call it what it is...

GOOD-EVIL-YOU

This is where the war comes in and depending on which voice you roll with will depend on how victorious you are in the Battle (LIFE)..

Another way to view this is the Devil's job description...

His whole purpose and goal in life is to rob you of your joy...

He has legions of unseen forces working nonstop around the world in the lives of every human on the face of this planet...

This is his Job...So when you hear that negative voice in your mind , recognize who just clocked in and meet them at the time clock..."Say man , You dont work here anymore...Don't make me call security!"

But , If you think about all the hell he has put you through or tricked you into , Go ahead and call security..."I Bind and rebuke you in the name of Jesus Christ!" He can't take that name...PERIOD.

There is POWER in his name..USE IT.

You ARE more than you THINK you are...
We have to pay attention to our thoughts and learn the M.O. of the enemy...

If it is positive and makes sense and will bless , It is of GOD...
ANYTHING having to do with FEAR is of Satan...

POSITIVE=GOD
NEGATIVE=Devil
YOU=THE ONE WHO DECIDES....

From this moment on ....Do not let the enemy keep you shackled...

DISCOVER YOURSELF.

Peace be unto you in the name of Jesus Christ...
Amen

Scott Johnson
www.scottjohnsononline.com
10/04/09
8:49 PM

VERBAL VITAMIN 13 ... ' The Official Letter to the Youth'

2010-04-13T14:33:00.001-05:00

VERBAL VITAMIN 13 .... ‘The Official Letter to the Youth’

To: The Young
From: Scott Johnson

What's up? How you doin? Que Paso? What it do?

I have been led to write the youth, the teens, the young of the world a letter.
A letter that will not only address certain issues but will show you how to handle those issues.

I am a 35 year old man, I am by no means old, but I am not Young either...
I am at a very interesting age and whether or not you like it, you will also be at this age someday.

I heard Bishop T.D. Jakes say something recently that has stuck with me.
"It's not the age of the car, its how many miles are on the engine"

Trust me y’all, I have turned my odometer over several times....

I am one of those dudes who constantly think about life.
I am one of the ones who are genuinely "Seeking" so I can find...
"Knocking" at the door of Knowledge till my knuckles bleed....

So please show me some patience and let me tell you what I have found out.
Allow me to share my wisdom with you...

Humans are creatures of Habit and whatever it is you’re going through, someone else has already been through it.
No matter how alone you may feel, 99.9 percent of the time, someone throughout history has suffered the same situation you have ... or the same Joy, Confusion, Love, Hate, etc...

Each generation thinks the previous one is stupid and uncool and this is a cycle that has gone on since the beginning of humanity....

Even young cave dwelling teens felt peer pressure, if you were not rocking T-Rex Slip-ons, you were not popular and you had to eat at the small rock table with the dude who wore the Yak Jacket and Skinny Antelope Jeans.

Your parents looked at your grandparents and laughed. They made fun of their music, their fashion, their hairstyles, etc...

The same way you make fun of your parents when ' I love the 80's' comes on VH1 or you see their yearbooks.

Your parent's music sucks and they have no style and they just don’t understand you and they are completely clueless to the drama that is your life...Right?

But you know what?
Your parents felt the same about their parents and your grandparents their parents and this goes on and on and on......

And when you get older and have children or if you have children now, they will one day think YOU are wack....
And you will find yourself trying to justify your music and fashion to someone who just doesn’t give a damn....
You will find yourself in the same shoes your parents wear...
And the record keeps spinning.....

My name is Scott Johnson and I am going to walk to the DJ Booth, Pick up that record, and break it in half....

My Bad, we are in the digital age....

My Name is Scott Johnson and I am going to walk to the DJ Booth and pour Pepsi on his Laptop and fry the song humanity has cursed us to dance to....

You who are reading this have the opportunity to break the cycle and I am going to show you how.

You can listen to me now or wait till your my age and say "Damn, That dude was right! I just thought he was a crazy old rapper trying to be cool, look at the years I have wasted!" Then you will punch the mirror and cry...

History repeats, unless the cycle is broken...

And you have the opportunity to break it!

And that Boys and Girls is the conclusion of my Intro....

Now we get down to Bidness!

Let's start with...

:POPULARITY:

I have not been in school since 91/92 but I am going to take a risk and say that being popular is still...popular.
Here is the deal with Popularity... If it is natural, embrace it and work it...
If people like being with you for who you are Naturally as a person , then by all means , there is nothing wrong with that.

BUT, if you’re frontin about any issue just to achieve popularity, you are deceiving yourself and your darkness will come to light.
Life has a way of calling you out when your head gets too big or you’re caught in a web of lies.

If you or your family is on a budget and you’re frontin like you got money, you will be put in a situation that shows people you’re broke...

If you’re frontin like your tough and always talking loud, you will be put in a situation where you get your ass kicked in front of the people you talk tough to and around...

Bullies are the biggest Cowards...

Whenever you do or say something that isn’t reality in your life, your lie will be exposed and you will become popular for being the person who tried to be popular but FAILED.

And let me tell you this, It always happens when you least expect it.

Really look at the popular kids and ask yourself why they are popular, and if you’re a popular kid, ask yourself why you are popular.

Is it your material possessions? You’re Looks? Your Sporting or musical talents?

Money and looks can be lost overnight, one house fire (God Forbid) can leave you homeless without your possessions and one scar on your face can ruin your "Beauty”, One Knee injury can end a career and I know firsthand how shady the music industry is... (Unless you’re willing to sound like everyone else out there and lose your individuality and voice.....)

Point is, Be popular for who you are and not what you look like or own or can do.
Be yourself and NEVER try to be who you are not, for the sake of popularity...

Truth be told, Popularity doesn't mean a damn thing in the real world.

Your employer , all the companies your going to pay utilities to , whoever holds your car note , and everyone else you will come in contact with could care less if you were popular ...

Like I said, If it's natural, Use it for good, you have obviously been blessed with leadership skills, do something positive with those skills.

But for you actors... you will never be able to sustain a front forever, so if your not in the "In -crowd”, don’t strive to be. Be proud of yourself as is and work what YOU got to the best of your potential.

And to be real with it, The "In-Crowd" mainly consists of arrogant A-holes and Snobby Chicks anyway. They are sooo consumed with fashion and looks and maintaining an image that they struggle later in life when their age starts to show on their face and body and the reality that their not "Cool" anymore haunts them....They struggle because they lived in and filled their minds with vanity instead of reality...No substance or foundation, now the walls are shakin.

The "In-Crowd" is only temporary... Knowledge of self and love is permanent.

You will always be unhappy when you try to live a life based on someone else’s interpretation of cool.

You will always be unhappy when you try to live a life based on someone else’s interpretation of cool.

You will always be unhappy when you try to live a life based on someone else’s interpretation of cool.

Be the best YOU ... I know that sounds afterschool specialish , but it's the best way to tell you that popularity is a false high and if people do not respect you for who you are as a person , then do not associate with them people.
A true friend is there regardless of physical appearance, financial status, or your situation in life.

So to end the cycle of having to be popular is easy....

Realize it's B.S. and just be yourself..... CYCLE BROKEN.

Next we move on to...

: SEX :

I will not over preach abstinence because I am a realistic man.
Is it the safest way? Of course...
Do I honestly believe that teens on a grand scale will practice abstinence? Not a chance in hell.

You youngins are light years ahead of where we were...
From the cartoons, to the videos to the movies to the music to the cell phones to the commercials and especially the internet, you cats see 100 times more sex and murder than we ever did growing up in the 80's.

You know more than we did at your age and you do more than a lot of us did at your age.

Teen pregnancy and STD's are still relevant, which means....Young People are still having sex.

Please listen...
We can't completely stop y'all from doing it, so I beg you this, if you’re going to do it, PROTECT YOURSELF!
Get some condoms....Be responsible with it!

I do applaud MTV for showing you a glimpse of what teen parenting is like, hopefully it makes you think.
My wife and I had our first child when we were 3 months into our 18th Birthdays....
So I speak to you from experience.

Children are the toughest job on earth...
THE TOUGHEST JOB ON EARTH!

The threat of a life ending disease is always there as well.

I worked with a man whose "Life Partner" had Aids...

He would pick my co-worker up after work...I literally saw the man deteriorate as time went on.
He just got skinnier and skinnier until they put him in the hospital and he died from Aids...

Sex is serious business...
Choosing the right person to share this with is crucial.

Ladies, dudes will tell you ANYTHING to get you.

And A LOT of dudes hit it and quit it...
Some leave you pregnant and never see you again.

Talk about a going away gift huh?

NEVER sleep with a dude to be popular.
Yes, you will be popular, but for all the wrong reasons.
And some dudes will call you Ho or Slut BECAUSE you DON’T sleep with them
Young dudes are immature and act like idiots....You gotta hold your head high and ignore that nonsense.

They use girls and break hearts because they don’t know how to handle love on a mature level, and honestly, even though females mature faster than males, you also are not ready for love at a young age.

Some dudes also have homeboys controlling them like puppets and your "Boyfriend" will act like a jerk to look HARD or show off his PIMP nature in front of his boys....But when he's ALONE with you...How does he act?

The dude is soft like newborn Panda fur....

HOW DO YOU BREAK THIS CYCLE?
You can break it by not giving away your goodies to every idiot that says he loves you and that you’re the "Best he ever had"....
You gotta be smart enough not to fall for game like that....

"Love often leads to sex, but sex rarely leads to love"
D.Stewart

You are young ladies ...You are faced with many different pressures.
Pressure to look this way or that or weigh this much or dress like that....
Not to mention the changes your bodies are going through, mentally and physically.

Add boys to the mix and y'all got a lot going on....

What I want you to understand from this letter is this; you are all beautiful and intelligent.
From The Blackest of Black skin to the Whitest of White and every shade in between.
PLEASE be smart enough to know that the girls in the magazines and videos are not your typical results and once again, they are who they are and YOU are who you are. You can’t be them and vice versa, and really, why would you want to be? You have your own unique gift you have yet to unwrap.

DO NOT let the media and entertainment industry con you into believing that you must look a certain way to be beautiful.
Women can be anything they desire to be... You each have a mind and talents that you are blessed with.
Develop yourself from the inside out...

I believe one of the biggest enemies against females is Insecurity.
Do not be fooled... You will never become who you were born to be if you are always wishing you were born someone else....Give YOU a chance to blossom, you just might end up liking yourself.

Break the cycle of being what the media and horny old men want you to be.
USE YOUR BRAIN...It's the sexiest organ.

Have pride in yourself and do not let a man control how you feel about yourself.

YOU ARE THE WORLD'S DAUGHTERS-MOTHERS-SISTERS and if your not a public Leader, then you are the Leader beside the Leader, You are more important than the world gives you credit for and truth be told, than you give yourself credit for.

The world has enough models and dancers.... We are in need of WOMEN.
And that empowered mindset needs to take shape NOW.

BREAK THE CYCLE!

And before the young men start getting angry with me and calling me a Hater ... Let me holla at y'all.

You must also not be quick to hop into bed with every girl that walks your way.
Just because you have a gun, doesn’t mean you should go around poppin caps for the hell of it.

Pregnancy and disease is just as serious for men and all you gotta do is hook up with the wrong chick ONE time and your whole life is altered...

And I am of the firm belief that if your man enough to make a child, you should be man enough to raise that child.
So if you’re not ready for that responsibility, make sure you are strapped at all times....ALL TIMES or restrain yourself from the company of ladies.

I'm not trying to use scare tactics on you; everything I speak is the honest truth.
Do your researches, visit a clinic, and look around your school...
The threat is real.

Sex is a beautiful gift but it must be handled with caution and maturity and above all else, responsibility.

You are young men, you are also going through changes and you also have pressure upon you.
A young man's mind is mainly made up of food, sex and music and sports.....
This is the majority of what is going on inside the head of young men all across the globe.

But just like I told the ladies about the bad boys, I will tell you about the bad girls.

Some girls are just bad because they choose to be and some girls are bad because they were made that way by dudes doing them wrong.

In the same way some guys will tell a girl anything to get sex, some girls will use sex to get anything from a guy.
You fellas gotta be smarter than that ... if she does it to you like that, she has done it to others.
Some girls lie about being pregnant, some girls lie about not having disease, but truth be told, Men are so controlled by sex, the women don’t have to say too much at all....

And this is a cycle that must be broken....
You are young men who have the opportunity to think things through, to make decisions based on the facts at hand and not because the reward might be sex.

We got enough dudes in the club and rappers pouring drinks on half nekked chicks...

WE NEED MEN! Leaders! Men who do not bow down to peer pressure and follow every trend that comes into style.
We need Men who have respect for women and respect for their own minds and who have goals.

And you guys have the opportunity to start training your minds for victory now.
And I know some of you dudes are laughing at me right now and this is exactly why this cycle of bad relationships and disease and teen pregnancy continues... This is no joke man, this is Life....

Take your time and make sure the girl is on point, this isn’t a race...

But like I said, if you just can’t wait and you’re not trying to hear anything I am talking about, at least hear the part about PROTECTING YOURSELF.

And let me touch on one last aspect of young love.

: THE BREAK-UP :
It kills me inside to know that some people actually kill themselves over someone else.
When you are young and in "Love”, it's like there is a huge magnifying glass on everything.
Everything appears way bigger than it actually is.
No one on this earth is worth taking your own life over.
I have had my heartbroken and I have also been stabbed 6 times.
I have often said I would rather be stabbed again...
Trust me , I know the pain of a broken heart is a pain that cannot be explained , I also wanted to die at one time due to heartbreak....But TRUST ME PLEASE...It will get better and you will laugh again and eventually you will love again.

I picked up a pen and wrote poetry and songs to get all of my sadness and anger and other emotions out of me.
pen , guitar, piano , bible , art , basketball , prayer, friends ,working out ....These are just a few things that help in the healing process...A lot of us don’t have access to instruments , but we all have access to a pen or pencil or green map color....WRITE it down , when it's on paper , it's out of you ....

Then you look back and see how much you have grown.

Turn your feelings around, you will survive and you will come out stronger and wiser...Whatever you do, don't do yourself in, write it down and stay active.

And the most important thing is this, watch out for the gossip.
This is when cats come on message boards talking nonsense and spreading rumors and all that.
Don't participate... give those with questions the Rasheed Wallace approach when he didn’t want to receive a fine, "Both teams played hard"... Whose fault was it? "Both teams played hard”, did he cheat on you? "Both Teams Played hard" ....The business is that of you and whoever the other party was and that is the way to break the cycle of all the ignorant aftermath of break-ups.
It didn’t work out...learn from it and Move on, no need to drag it on and start all the he said / she said nonsense....
What is done is done....

You will also address these issues as an adult and I must tell you that the sooner you realize that open and honest communication is the key....the sooner your relationships will improve.

This goes for every relationship you will ever have , from personal to business.

You gotta talk to each other and tell the truth.

If you don’t, life will expose you.

And next on the agenda is....

: ATTITUDE :

One cycle that needs to be broken and can be broken is your attitude.
If you, the youth, realize now, that it's not all about you, you will have greater success in life.

Selfishness will get you nowhere and neither will Laziness.
I completely understand that now more than any other time in our history, they market YOU to US, but all they are really doing is creating spoiled brats who will have great difficulty when they get out in the real world.

You see the commercials and how everything is marketed for you guys?

They make you feel inferior if you do not have the latest cell or clothes....

That is all B.S.
All of it....

And you know who the winner is? The companies....
Your parents are out of pocket to keep you in the latest style and you are constantly trying to keep up with the latest style while some people sit around in an office and determine what that next style should be.... Then they get into cars your parents can’t afford and eat at restaurants your parents can’t afford because your parents have helped pay for their vehicle and lunch so YOU can look good and have the newest phone and clothes that will not be in style next month.....

It's all a cycle of B.S.
They work - You get - companies get richer - we get poorer -Rinse and Repeat.

You are the next generation coming up; you have opportunities to make change.

It's time for you to expect more of yourself and challenge yourselves to be the best you can be.
To quit accepting the mindless music and T.V. and Film they throw at you as the standard.

We need to raise that standard and have creative competition again, Have pride in yourselves and your work.
Not to copy each others styles, but to innovate and Lead.

You guys now have the opportunity to stand up against Racism and show the world that united we can accomplish anything.

You guys now have the opportunity to learn from all of the mistakes that have ever been made and make a conscious choice not to keep those mistakes alive but to make them extinct by choosing not to follow in the footsteps of those who made the mistakes to begin with...

You can break the cycle...

You can start the trend of making intelligence cool.

Why is having an "I don't give a F***" attitude more popular than a positive attitude?

Because when you don't give a F***, you don’t have to work.
That is your scapegoat, it’s acceptable for you to fail because, you don’t give a F***.
You just take whatever is thrown at you and screw up your life through horrible choices and you throw a middle finger in the air , cause you don’t give a F*** and you learn the hard way that what you give in this life is what you get...

Your too cool too care though...

But when you DO Give a F***, you work your ass off.
You sweat and bleed and make sacrifices and you have honor and pride and you make change , not only for yourself but for those around you.
It takes longer , but the reward is greater.

It breaks down like this, the choices you make as a teen and in your 20’s, you spend your 30’s either recovering from or celebrating those choices.

But you don’t think about this and when people try to tell you, you blow them off.

YOU ARE GETTING OLDER EVERYDAY, JUST LIKE I AM!

And I am trying to tell you these things so you can have a better life, so you’re not just smarter in the areas of computers and phones and video games but you are wise beyond your years about life and how to work it because you were smart enough to see through the ignorance at a young age. If I can get through to enough of you and if you get through to your people and so on and so on, we can change the world for the better.... But we can’t change the world until we change our lives and if we change our lives we affect those around us and that changes our households then neighborhoods and then it expands from there....

We got enough people who don’t give a F***
Drive by your neighborhood liquor stores or look at the old school dude still gang bangin or turn on your radio to hear copy cat music or CNN to see war....

We need some people who care and aren’t afraid to be man or woman enough to care.

Intelligence and love is a lot harder and involves more work than ignorance and Hate and the world is full of Lazy people, this explains the unbalanced nature of our lives...But we can Break this Cycle and you as the youth, once again, have the opportunity to make a great change.

I am almost done, but I want to speak on your Parents before I go.

I don’t know your situation at home, if you have both parents or if you’re in a single parent family, but if you have at least one parent that provides for you and listens to you and talks with you, be very thankful, that is a blessing.

Too many households have none that care or have no clue how to talk to you.

I am a parent of 3 children, my oldest just recently turned 17.

I know firsthand that you can be very difficult to deal with, wasn’t too long ago I was there myself and I was selfish douche bag.
I remember being selfish and immature and an A-hole to girls and jail and probation and all of that nonsense I could have avoided if I was only wise enough to listen.

I made horrible choices and I have paid a heavy price, so please learn from me and those around you.
You don’t always have to experience things for yourself, not all things...

You youth must realize that your parents are just as confused about you as you are them.
But when you ignore each other, you just make matters worse and widen the gap of communication to the point that you don’t talk at all....

And I know I don’t know your folks or your household or there style of parenting, but I can safely say, it is better to sit down and talk about everything face to face than it is to slam doors, And if you absolutely cant find anyone to talk to, and if I am wrong about sitting down and talking at your house, hit my inbox, I'll talk to you, I’ll share whatever knowledge I got.

And to you Parents who feel the need to be your child's friend as opposed to their parent, you’re only doing harm.
Somebody needs to be the leader in your household and if it's not you, it will be them.
The one with more knowledge and experience should lead...that should be common sense.

It is possible for you to be a friendly parent with a trusting relationship, but you can’t be a friend who only parents every now and then. There is no solid foundation of respect built and that is bad for both of you.

And to you parents always leaving your kids home alone because you’re at the club, don’t cry or complain when your kid does bad.... The internet and TV is raising him or her, you may not be there Thursday, Friday or Saturday, but you will be present for the court date or the subject of the therapist visits....Get your priorities straight or get a crooked kid.

In closing, I know this has been a long letter, but like I said, I felt led to write it.
I don’t know who all this will reach, but if makes sense to you and you felt what I was saying, please forward it.
I have not written anything that is an untruth, if I have, let’s discuss it.

My main goal with this was to show the youth they hold the key to change in their hands and they have the power to make history by changing the future.

Love
Respect
Knowledge
Intelligence
Hard work
Dedication
Open minds and hearts
These values and emotions should be exalted.
This could be the grassroots beginning of a revolution, you know what to do and how to do it, now all you gotta do is do it.

And Lastly, I know people reading this will be from various backgrounds.
Different races and religions will read my words...

I did my best not to mention religion in the main body of my writing because I wanted to show you that all of this can be accomplished regardless of who you are and where you’re from and what you believe.

But I will end with this, I am a believer in God and through the love and knowledge of God, I have gained my intelligence and learned countless life lessons.
He has healed me and took me to many different levels.
And for those with no parents or for those with bad relationships with your parents , I can say with all sincerity , that faith in Jesus Christ has changed my entire life and he has been a true father figure to me and can be for you if that is what is desired by you.

You speak to the Lord like you would another human, you can’t see him, but he is there.
The spirit is always with you, most call him your "Conscious"...
You follow your "Conscious" or "Spirit" and you connect sincerely with that, and everything changes...
And for those interested in wisdom and learning about life, read Proverbs in your Bible. There are 30, one for each night. If you genuinely seek, you will get answers.

It takes patience and obedience, but you will go on a never ending journey of learning.

I also believe that in the spiritual outlook of a human beings life, Satan attacks the hardest when you’re a teen.
If he can get you to not care or keep you depressed and distracted or keep you Lazy or keep you in rebellion and unbelief, then the Job is soooo much easier later on in life.
The choices you make now, affect the rest of your life.

And by me telling you all of this, and dropping all these life lessons on you, I have angered Hell which makes me a very happy man.

In the name of Jesus Christ, I pray this letter touches your life in a positive way.
Thank you very much for reading.
And once again, if you know someone who could benefit from the writing, please forward it to them.
God Bless
Scott Johnson
www.scottjohnsononline.com
Sunday, April 11, 2010

P.S.
I am including a link to a song called 'Cut My Ties'.
This is a song that deals with the very serious but often neglected topic of suicide.
I ask that you download it and send it to anyone you feel may need it.
We just might save a life :)

'CUT MY TIES'
http://scottjohnson.podomatic.com/entry/2010-04-11T21_00_15-07_00

VERBAL VITAMIN 12 ... Lesson 2

2010-04-13T14:32:00.000-05:00

Welcome to the final Verbal Vitamin of the year 2009...Lesson 2 of 2.

Ask most anybody , Believers in Christ or not ... and they will admit to having a certain amount of regret in their life.
Not only regret , but alot of us walk around daily with guilt upon us ...the amount varies from person to person.

also ,everyone , Believers in Christ or not ... Will admit to the existence of sin.
Even the most Godless man will admit evil exists..

and also... good.

If you have heard anything about Jesus at all , then you have probably heard something like....

"God's only begotten son" "Savior" "He died for our sins so that we may live" etc...
The most basic knowledge associated with Jesus , is that he died for our sins....

"To him give all the prophets witness, that through his name whosoever believeth in him shall receive remission of sins. "
Acts 10:43

You see it on bumper stickers , T-shirts , Church signs ..."He died for us" or "His blood was shed for us"...
This message was so realisticly driven home in "The Passion of the Christ" , That some people left the theater and went straight to get saved ...

We are aware with what Jesus is connected to.. Whether you believe in him or not , You at least know his rep or have heard the "rumors"..

So....If you ask the basic believer what Jesus accomplished ,in a nutshell , he will more than likely say...

God sent his son here to die as a replacement for the sins of humanity.

SO with ONE ACT , the sins of humanity have been forgiven , correct?

This is what the general consenus is right?

Then tell me why we as a human race still battle guilt over sins on a daily basis?

Why do we still feel unworthy ? Undeserving ?

I have met a few people in my time who have told me that they have gone too far to come back to God.
They felt they had been beyond the acceptable level with the Lord and so they never got a relationship with God because they felt he wouldnt mess with these "Sinners" anyway...

We all know people like that... "Heaven wouldnt take me! "

Alot of these people are called "uncles" :)

There again , Let me remind you, Paul (A former Christian Murderer) wrote the majority of the New Testament.
It's never too late...

One night this really hit me , he opened my mind to something...

I started thinking , If God forgives me ... Why can't I forgive myself ?

Why do I still roam around with guilt/regret from my past?

So I started conversating with myself ...

You believe in God ? You Know I do ! Orite then , what did Jesus come to do ? Die for our sins ... Our sins are wiped clean right? God doesnt remember your past right ? Thats what it says ... SO if the one who is in Heaven forgives you and is not worried about what you did , then why are YOU still thinking about it daily? .... He says your sins are remembered no more ... Then why are YOU holding onto them ?

So this awakening got me thinking about things ...

The wheels started turning and this all made sense to me , it couldn't be disputed...

I started conversating again...

Can you go back and repair what happened or what you did ?
no....
Did you learn from your mistakes?
....yes
So when you run around here and say your a believer , but yet you still fight against regret and guilt , wouldnt that be a slap in the face of what Christ came here for ?

Yes sir , I guess it would....

Live-Learn-Evolve....Live NOW and not THEN and tell others of your mistakes in the hopes they can avoid some of the same traps you fell in...
The cycle of the life of the wise...

So these thoughts started changing me...Conversating with the spirit within me opened my eyes....Yet again.

What is done is done and there is absolutely nothing that can be done other than learn from what has been done so you do not repeat the same foolishness... when you do what it do....DIG?

One day my wife had the T.V. on and there was a Preacher named Joseph Prince preaching.
http://josephprince.org/

His style made logical sense and he was very humorous...Captivating as a speaker.

So I started watching him on the regular.
He basically preaches on the Grace of God and Faith and this has taught me more than I could've imagined or let me say , He has opened my eyes with his teaching and it has changed my life....

The other day , as he was preaching on Grace , I suddenly...Got it.
It all made sense to me...

Be it known unto you therefore, men and brethren, that through this man is preached unto you the forgiveness of sins: And by him all that believe are justified from all things, from which ye could not be justified by the law of Moses.

Acts 13:38-39

And by him all that believe are justified from all things....Think about that...Absorb it..

People attach rules and regulations that society deem acceptable , that humans deem to be law and this has become a great tool of the enemy because it keeps us in bondage.
It keeps us chained to our past or feeling unworthy of something better .
Because we as humans ....FAIL...In the eyes of fellow humans ..

And this is where the enemy gets us...

Your listening to that ? Your not a true believer...
I saw you drinking beer at Chilis ? Your not a true believer ...
Your watching that? Your not a true believer....
Your eating meat? Your not a true believer....
You dropped an F-bomb? Your not a true believer...
etc..etc...etc...etc...

I am not endorsing any of this , but at the same time it is my firm belief that these things are minuscule on God's Agenda...

And you might see me sipping an Ice cold Budweiser and eating a chicken fried steak...Afterwards , On the way home , I am probably gonna be listening to some metal..
Do these actions make me love my Lord any less or him love me any less ?

If you feel it will , Then you are distracted.

Is the man in the suit more acceptable to God than the man in T-shirt and Jeans?
Is the man who is on "prescription" pills found more favorable than the one on herb?
Is the woman with short hair less of a saint than the one with long?

It is my firm belief that the way we treat each other is of greater importance than our personal likes or habits...

Because truth be told ,
EVERY SINGLE INDIVIDUAL ON PLANET EARTH HAS SOMETHING THAT THEY DO IN THEIR PRIVATE LIVES ....
Everyone of us has a vice....And if you really wanna get dirty with it , The rich have the nastiest habits and dirtiest laundry , yet are the quickest to judge.

I no longer care how you view me ... Life is bigger than your perception of who I am supposed to be...
And I challenge the naysayers to show me where I have spoken falsely...

Everyone has a different view of what makes a true beliver in God....And everyone feels that there way is correct.
Same way we have views on what makes a real man or woman.

Some believe if you dont speak in tongues , you go to hell.
Some believe you handle snakes to prove your belief (BTW , That wasn't in the earliest text , Ya'll can quit that at anytime now)
Some believe you have to do or say certain things in order to be forgiven , they confess to another human being to be handed out a human punishment
to appease a Spiritual God who has already Forgiven you of all debt....Does that make sense?

WHEN YOU LIVE TO UPHOLD YOURSELF FOR THE APPROVAL OF MAN - YOU WILL ALWAYS FAIL.
WHEN YOU LIVE TO UPHOLD YOURSELF FOR THE APPROVAL OF MAN - YOU WILL ALWAYS FAIL.
WHEN YOU LIVE TO UPHOLD YOURSELF FOR THE APPROVAL OF MAN - YOU WILL ALWAYS FAIL.

Every church and every pastor and teacher and philospher and religion have a certain way they do things and a certain way of dealing with it's sinners.
They have there ways to condemn you ... But most of us dont need any help , we condemn ourselves just fine.

The Gospel is preached and Jesus is told to be the one who has forgiven all sins through his bloodshed , but no one takes that part seriously or grasps what that truly means.
We still run around trying to be pleasing in the eyes of mankind....to look like were pleasing to God.

"But when the Pharisees had heard that he had put the Sadducees to silence, they were gathered together. Then one of them, which was a lawyer, asked him a question, tempting him, and saying, Master, which is the great commandment in the law? Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. This is the first and great commandment. And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets."

Matthew 22:34-40

QUIT BEING DISTRACTED AND EVOLVE !

WHEN YOU LIVE BY AND OBEY THE SPIRIT WITHIN - YOU WILL ALWAYS PROSPER.
WHEN YOU LIVE BY AND OBEY THE SPIRIT WITHIN - YOU WILL ALWAYS PROSPER.
WHEN YOU LIVE BY AND OBEY THE SPIRIT WITHIN - YOU WILL ALWAYS PROSPER.

Here is the good news for you believers...

My little children, these things write I unto you, that ye sin not. And if any man sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous: And he is the propitiation for our sins: and not for ours only, but also for the sins of the whole world.

1 John 2:1-2

http://www.gotquestions.org/propitiation.html

When you break that down it is saying...
Look ya'll , You know right from wrong , The Holy spirit in you shows you this...Now , Try to listen to that spirit and do right...BUT , If you screw up and get ignorant for a minute , dont walk around in depression and feel like a worthless loser the rest of your days ,BECAUSE , Jesus has already got you covered.
This is why he came here....This is why he suffered...You yourself have read it...Now you just gotta believe it...Life is trial and error...This is why learning from the mistakes of others is spoken of so highly , it shows you are wise.

Joh 10:10
The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.

Abundant Life? This is why he came?
Where is this abundant life he speaks of?
Most of us will never see it because were too distracted by laws and religion and wrapped up in guilt and shame and embarrasment and every other feeling the THIEF can use against us to keep us from living life , guilt free and happy He robs our Joy and destroys dreams and confidence.
He keeps us worried that everything were doing is so bad that we lose sight of the good we were promised.
What is keeping you from living an abundant life? Dont just say money , Break it all the way down and search your soul.
Clean out your skull...
After the fact that the price has been paid really sunk into me , I felt free ya'll.
I felt like a dark weight has been lifted off of my brain.
I have learned from my past , I have given my future to God and I trust him to guide me and I am now trying to live in the Present.
This is the point of this message...
If you believe in Christ , Step your game up...
Really comprehend what he did and accept the fact there is no act you can commit that will Make you worthy..
You have already been made worthy , accept it and free yourself.
Your good enough , your smart enough and dog gone it , people like you...so I've heard :)
Once you walk closer with your spirit , You will be able to see more clearly all the various ways the enemy works.
and when you can see his tactics , You can overcome them and move beyond your current level.

Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.

Matthew 5:16

I personally believe that if we are God's greatest creation he might like to see all of us living up to our full potential.
See us really do what we were created to do...
Cant the masses see were doing 20 on the autobahn of our minds ?
Lets push the pedal on our faith and mental and see how fast this baby goes!
"Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened. Or what man is there of you, whom if his son ask bread, will he give him a stone? Or if he ask a fish, will he give him a serpent? If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask him?
Therefore whosoever heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them, I will liken him unto a wise man, which built his house upon a rock: And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell not: for it was founded upon a rock. And every one that heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them not, shall be likened unto a foolish man, which built his house upon the sand: And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell: and great was the fall of it. And it came to pass, when Jesus had ended these sayings, the people were astonished at his doctrine: For he taught them as one having authority, and not as the scribes. "
Matthew 7:1-29

So I will leave you with this...God loves you and has a plan for you and he speaks to you daily... Open your inner ear and listen.
For further proof of his existence , Just look at the sky every morning and evening...
Look at the sun and the clouds and all the colors and think about how it all works and marvel at the genius and the mystery...
I stand in awe of it...
My Father in Law Martin says it's like a fresh painting every day...And it is.
This is bigger than us all and we are all here for something...just BELIEVE...
But without faith it is impossible to please him : for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.

Hebrews 11:6
Look inside of yourselves....Your not alone.

I pray in the name of Jesus Christ I have blessed whoever has read my words...
I truly appreciate your time ...And I hope in some way I have touched your heart and your mind.
Thank you for reading.

I was trying to think on how to end this series ......and I have decided to go with a Reverse Soprano ending.

So when you get done reading... Take a deep breath and Close your eyes ... Exhale and see the light.

...and that is how we will end our groundbreaking drama...

PEACE
GOD BLESS
RESPECT

SCOTT JOHNSON
12/11/09
5:29 AM

VERBAL VITAMIN 12 ... Lesson 1

2010-04-13T14:31:00.001-05:00

Welcome to the final Verbal Vitamin of the year...Lesson 1 of 2.

I will start this off with some knowledge the Lord has blessed me with recently.
A new trail has been made in my mind.

I have spoken on having 3 voices within every human being...Good-Bad-You or God-Devil-You.
Whether or not you believe in God , You cannot dispute the fact that these voices exist and present us with multiple choice scenarios in our daily lives.

Like many of you , I have struggled to understand the concept of "The Trinity"...
But God has enlightened me.

I have been, for quite some time , in complete agreement that the good voice within us all is the holy spirit of God...
( Most of you refer to this voice as "Your concious" )

Which would obviously mean that your negative thoughts would be influenced by a negative force.

and there you are...Stuck in the middle with you :)

Now let me flip the script right quick...

Why do so many "Christians" fail ?

Why do so many "Believers" fall out of love with God?

This was an answer I was seeking from The Lord because I was struggling...I was in that , "Where is God at ?" mode...
Feeling lonely and abandoned and I began to question and like usual , when I began to question , He begins to answer.

GOD is The Father - The Boss - The Creator.
Jesus is the SON - mediator and savior
and The Holy spirt is ever present to guide our behavior.

and they are all forms of each other...

When you discover God , You get this high about you.
When you Hear from God , You change , you have a realization that you are not alone in the universe , You get a pep in your step , your telling people about it , your excited , YOU were given SOMETHING in YOUR LIFE that is REAL.

Some of us know in that moment that were not alone , others know exactly what there purpose is , Others get a word of instruction or encouragment or prophesy , some get all of the above at once...

So you get High...

Walkin around like Jay...We are really High .. Really Really High...

But this high is different than any street drug can give , any sexual relationship can satisfy , or fantasy could compare...
This high last from periods ranging from days to years...This is a Soul High...Supplied by God....THE FATHER

This is a huge hit that stays with you , But like every high...It eventually wears off ...

Some of you read that I went to see a prophet and Got a word ..... well this word got me high.
The Lord spoke some great things concerning me.

So here I am , expecting these things to occur like ,right away ,and when they did not , my impatience and anger took over.
(This also taught me a lesson about wanting to know ... there is a distinct peace in not knowing)

So I was having a withdrawl from my high... Ya'll following me?

God speaks to you in some form or fashion and it impacts your life greatly , and then , it gets quiet....

So what I was seeking God about was "Where are you in those quiet times?"

This is where the opening of the eyes occured...

Imagine a timeline of your life...A straight line...
Now take every one of your life changing events and make them Soild big circles on your line.
Where is God in between these circles?

You discover him , Your life changes , and now your wondering where he is at....

He never left...
and if you seriously stop and look and reflect , you will see how it was you got by in between the big circles and what you learned in the process...He was there through it all , Whether you acknowledged his presence.

Let me explain.

When you hear that grand message or get that grand revelation , this is GOD THE FATHER speaking.
He gives you an eye opening hit of life and the high is not comparable...

After you get this high potent awakening , You are now constantly looking to acheive the same level of high that you got the first time (or the last time) you felt a great move of God in your life...Like any other high you enjoy , You want to feel that way again...and when you dont , You start to feel that God has left you alone and you start trying to do everything yourself because you havent "Gotten High" like you did before and you start to withdrawl and this is where the enemy moves in the troops...

Impatience , questions of sanity , anger , bitterness , confusion , loneliness .... I know of these emotions , I got my knowledge in the storm , Feel me?

we start doubting what we heard and the enemy moves in and you may even start doubting God's presence alltogether ....

How can we let this happen to us ? We were JUST on fire with belief !

We were JUST convinced we had a life changing expierience !

How can this roller coaster be going down now ?

Because were looking for the same high to occur EVERYTIME and GOD does NOT work like this....

So where is he ?

He is working on what he told you or showed you or promised you or whatever "Deal" ya'll made , The FATHER is doing what needs to be done to fulfill the agreement he has made with his child (You) in the initial or last meeting....And depending on what was said by either party , Your next big "High" could be a good minute.

SO , In the QUIET times , We are dealing with the HOLY SPIRIT of The Trinity...Just like we always have , But since society would rather say "concious" , we do not equate this with the 3rd being in the trinity and many therefore dont recognize the God within themselves...That voice within that pushes you for your BEST.

and JESUS the SON made manifest in the flesh was the one who enabled us to be in this position to begin with.
JESUS was / is the loophole in this cosmic game of chess... I mean that with no disrespect, it is what it is.

and there is your Trinity...

THE FATHER hits you with something Amazing and then goes to work FOR you , meanwhile , the Holy spirit within , goes to work , ON you....
So while the Father is preparing the path , the spirit is preparing the person to walk on that path... Praise God! That is some deep knowledge right there ya'll.

Problem is , we drown out the voice of the spirit because were expecting to hear the Voice of The Father every time.

We are not alone in the quiet times , in fact it is the opposite , this is when the spirit of the Lord is closest to us ...
But we walk around with blind eyes and deaf ears wondering where he is at and all the time he is trying to get your attention from the inside.

Think back to ANY hardship / sorrow / heartache/ bout of depression/ As nasty as you felt , there was a voice inside of you that TRIED to help you and encourage you.
But everytime that voice spoke , another voice would enter and tell you ,YOU didnt feel like doing or saying anything or you just hated the world and so many times we just surrender to the voice thats filling us with self pity/ anger/ or emotion #13 Mike Muir spoke of , and it drags us further into a form of Hell...

"I excuse myself- I'm used to my little cell - I amuse myself in my very own private hell"
Alice in Chains

UNTIL someone or some expierience opens your ears/eyes and the voice of the spirit is dominant again...You have your "Awakening"..

Some suppress the voice of the spirit till it's inaudible or they just completely ignore it , which often leads to very bad places or death...

Point is this , After The Father speaks, pay attention to what is going on in your mind , your gut , your concious....
Because now the spirit is just not dealing with our daily bread , you have a mission and the faster you do what your spirit leads you to do , the faster you will recieve what it is you have been seeking...So quit asking what is taking so long for your blessing and start asking , what steps you need to take to handle the blessing you are seeking...

EXAMPLE : Everynight for YEARS , My spirit would tell me , "Scott , Once you quit smoking cigarettes , everything changes" ...Everynight I would say "Yeah , I know" and I would go through the routine of hating myself and feeling like a prisoner to the nicotine and making empty promises...

Where would I be today had I listened to my spirit all of those years ago?
Everyone on earth KNOWS what they gotta do , You have that voice , same as I do... The longer we fight our spirit , The longer it takes to get where we are going.
We are drowning and yet we get angry or supress the voice when the spirit tries to pull us out of the water...So we flop around like insane salmon and get angry with GOD...When all along he is like "Hey man , I'm waiting on you! Get this part done and remove that layer so I can take you where I told you I would !"

He is everpresent with us...

See how this works?

GOD speaks to you in a profound way...After that , follow your spirit , get in touch with the God inside of you and be obedient.
Then you get what you asked for and God speaks again...and this continues forever until the next stop on your journey....
This is how we evolve into what we were truly born to be...But it works both ways , You gotta put in your work also.

This knowledge is groundbreaking for me , Maybe you or someone you know already knew this ....If you did , why didn't you tell us?
This God given knowledge helped me out tremendously , because it opened my eyes to what I was doing wrong.
I was allowing the enemy to come in and rob my blessings by distracting me and taking up valuble mind time.

So instead of walking around like "Where is God ? He dont love me no more ! What did I do wrong? What did I say? Why arent you talking to me? Do you even exist? "
All that nonsense...That would drag me down and distract me...

I am now at peace ... The Father Spoke and I am listening to my spirt till the Father does what he does ...

Then that high will come again....

This was important to me to share because this goes back to the question I asked earlier...

Why do so many fail?

The time after God speaks is a crucial time...If your new in your faith or you lack patience , This could make or break you as a "believer".
This is the time that the enemy works very hard to distract you and steal your joy.

YOU MUST BE PATIENT AND ON GUARD...I have learned this the hard way.

This is why Jesus speaks of the seed that was cast on stony ground...The roots dont run deep , they wither and die.
Because they lack the knowledge and patience to understand , God never stops working , and they stop running the race halfway through and never taste of the victory that was almost theirs...
I was one of these people.
Now I am on a whole nother level and it feels great...

SO if your on the same level I am , Please take this teaching with you and share it.
God is never absent from you , Your ignoring his inner voice because your expecting that outer voice.
The Outer voice will come back when you finish what the inner voice is telling you to do.

Which brings me back to what I started with... The 3 Voices.
You know what's right and wrong and you know when you get a "Feeling" about something....
Learn to listen to and work with your spirit...in "The quiet times" ....

I pray this blesses you and gives your mind some peace.

Thanks to everyone who hits my inbox with prayer request and your thoughts and your worries and your questions....
I appreciate you and will always give you the Best/Honest/Logical advice I can give.

God Bless
Scott Johnson

VERBAL VITAMIN 11 ... Off To The Races

2010-04-13T14:29:00.002-05:00

VERBAL VITAMIN 11 ... Off To The Races

+ Six Humans trapped by happenstance - In dark and bitter cold +
+ Each possessed a stick of wood - or so the storys told +

+ Their dying fire in need of logs - The first woman held hers back +
+ For on the faces around the fire - she noticed one was black +

+ The next man looking cross the way - saw one not of his church +
+ And could not bring himself to give- the fire his stick of birch +

+ The 3rd one sat in tattered clothes - He gave his coat a hitch +
+ Why should his log be put to use - to warm the idle rich +

+ The rich man just sat back and thought - of the wealth he had in store +
+ And how to keep what he had earned - from the lazy shiftless poor +

+ The Black man's face bespoke revenge - as the fire passed from sight +
+ For all he saw in his stick of wood - was a chance to spite the white +

+ The last man of this forlorn group - did not except for gain +
+ Giving only to those who gave - was how he played his game +

+The logs held tight in death's still hands - was proof of human sin +
+ They did not die from the cold without - They died from the cold within +

anonymous

I copied that poem down while doing community service , years ago :)

Now , Years later , It is the prelude to one of the most important issues I will write about...RACE.

I find it horrific on so many levels that within the last two years, a black man was drug to death by a truck driven by racist whites ...
I know this is just one tragic act out of innumerable acts , But I chose it because the level of sub barbarian thinking, invoved in this murder, blows my mind.

Drug to death? Because of skin color? In the New Millenium?
(Any Millenium for that matter)

Why have humans on a whole not progressed their level of thinking?

WHY is ignorance not only tolerated , but encouraged?

I personally believe that Racism is one of the greatest tools the enemy uses to keep us in bondage.

But I have two solutions to end Racism...So I believe we can fix it !

Number one : Everyone over the age of 3 participate in mass suicide...

This way , the youth who survive ,will grow up realizing they need each other to survive and would never know the sins of our past.
They would base opinions on facts and the behaviour of the individual. (instead of pre-judging from skin and the race as a whole )
We would have to have a mass burning of all literature and film that shows the animalistic side of our nature before we all killed ourselves... So they could not emulate our behaviour.

This would require lots of strategic planning and extra security...The last thing we would want is for some wise guy to leave a note in his pocket that said " The Pale skins did this , do not trust them " , Not only would That be uncool , It would defeat the purpose of a mass worldwide suicide.

I have a strong feeling that this choice will not be a popular one...

Number two: Everyone on earth reprogram their thinking to a higher level.

Base their thoughts on logic and common sense and on the individual.

I now have a strong feeling that choice one is beginning to be considered...:)

Race is embedded in the DNA of America.

We made it ... So IMO we can kill it... But the Masses Fear the Frankenstein that has been created ...
How can we tackle this monster ?
Wrap up the legs...Take it to the ground and stomp it's guts out...
With knowledge and with Love and with understanding...

STOP !
Why did some of you hear "That's weak" in your mind as you read the above statement?

Recognize the whisper of the whisperer....

There was a billboard in Southern Africa that read... "We face neither East nor West; We face forward"

This got me thinking...

The enemy loves to keep us all in bondage with our past , which is why we as human beings have extreme difficulty in moving forward.

I am a white man writing this...

The race my skin reflects is the race responsible for stealing this land from the natives , slavery , The trail of tears, tuskegee , Police brutality , politics, the state of the nation, hate crimes and murders of many kinds in the name of God and country and skin tone...

Their actions and crimes against humanity are a great embarrasment and should serve as a reminder of the Evil that can be present within the hearts of men.

It is however , extremely ignorant to say all whites supported / support this behavior and group us all in this category as our "Forefathers"...
The same way it is beyond ignorance for whites to assume all other races are at their worst on a majority level.

Racism is not in my lineage, and if it was , Like it is for some of you , It would be my responsibility to break that and start a new cycle of intelligence.

But this point doesnt hold much weight to people who have had slavery within their family tree...

Men and women who have seen brutallity first hand from white hands arent extremely interested in shaking hands...
Which is why so many raise their fist....All Colors

Horrible acts and horrible facts but none can go back....
I am not going to spend the majority of my sermon bringing up the past.....The injustice is known...
and the reality is that we can only learn from the Past , we cannot change it...

I am here to get people to Face Forward....

Who the Hell do I think I am to tell Blacks to "Face Forward" ?

I am the same man who will Tell Whites and Hispanics and Asians and whoever you may be , to do the same.

MOVE FORWARD.

We are obsessed with going back and repairing the past , Look at all the books and movies and dreams and songs about going back.
Who hasn't had a wish that they could go back? ...we all share that , ALL OF US.

But if the enemy can keep you focused on the past then your not living in the now , which affects your future.

If I am wrong and out of line or being offensive, Then I beg of you to tell me who is right and in line and making progress.

Who is it?
Is it the angry Black person hating anything resembling white ?

How is that working out? How many eyes have you opened to the evils of the white devil?
Is hating Cracka ass crackas sincerely making a positive difference in your life?
Is it lowering the gas prices ? Is it increasing the employment rate?

Is it that angry White person hating anything resembling Black?

How is the new president working out for you? Are you still convinced he is the anti-Christ?
Has your hate kept your kids from downloading Drake? Is your prejudice helping your aryan brothers and sisters without insurance?

Anger doesnt work ... Hate doesnt work ... Violence doesnt work ... The past cannot be changed ... The future is not promised .... which leaves us with what?

THE PRESENT.

Only Love and Education and open communication will work.

Those wanting to discover "Intelligent Life" on other planets kill me...

Humans cant even function properly on default....

Less than five years ago , people were actually buying STARS from other humans....STARS???!!!

I am not trying to come across as self righteous ...
But dammit man , Cetain elements of our existence should not even be an issue at this stage of the game.

We MUST progress our thinking and quit letting the media dictate our perception of each other...
And Great grand-pa and grand-pa and your daddy or uncle or whoever is filling your head with the "All The Same" rhetoric...

Is it far fetched to say that maybe racism is even controlled to a degree?

We all know how stereotypes are used...The news and Tv and movies display that daily...
Next time your watching T.V. and they show a Native American , LISTEN , You will hear a flute....Or when they show asians , you hear some form of gong....Or Dirk...The Glockenspiel :)

{Note to Black comedians...The bit where the white dude is stiff necked and says pal in that nerdy voice, is played out...I have personally only seen this type of white man on television.
If ya'll stop that , I'll do my best to get white people to stop getting in the b-boy stance and saying "word to your mutha"...Neither of these jokes by either race is funny ...Please progress...Btw , what do you call 2 mexican men standing in dog crap ? Puto's....That is funny ! Que no?}

See how they do all of us?

They do this as well to instill fear and misunderstanding in all of us.
The Majority is being spoon fed fear on a daily basis....

What would happen if all races had a better understanding of each other?
This would create UNITY...and guess what..UNITY is not a money maker.

UNITY means people are focused on one thing together , they are in agreement with each other.

So if the races were in agreement that we are all of The Human kind , that would clear that distraction from our thoughts and allow us to redirect them to creative and positive ways for us all to progress....But who wants that? Then EVERYONE might start asking questions and that is a No-No.

"If black and white didn't argue the most - They could clearly see the governments screwing them both"
KRS-ONE

Keep em dumb and scared and fighting amongst themselves and debating over material status and race and religion and trivial arguments so a certain group of people can live extremely comfortable lives....See the bigger portrait?
We gotta get past this...There is so much more we should have acheived by now....

No matter your skin tone:
You hunger
You Thirst
You sleep
You Bleed
You desire
You love
You Hate
You Laugh
You Cry
You want to be somebody
You want a great life for your kids
You got Bills
You fight with your family
You love your pet
You have a favorite song and movie and food and drink and Scott Johnson album :)
You have sexual and emotional and intellectual and spiritual needs....

YOU ARE HUMAN.

We get the world to see and understand this truth , God knows where we can go.
I know we have not pushed our minds to the levels they are capable of ....
God has blessed each individual with their own personal universe between their ears and we use less than ten percent...

Jesus said ANYTHING was possible....
So how come we are not at that level?
Because were still stuck in Kidergarten with our thought lives...
In other words , The world is distracted by the enemy and cannot progress as a whole.
Till we can all get out of kindergarden , We will always be forced to ...imagine.... we can fly...

Racism is rooted in fear and ignorance.
We gotta break this cycle...

On a closing note I would like to drop a couple points...

The Black race says that they created rock and roll.
ROCK AND ROLL
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rock_and_roll

But let me point out , it was a white man who created the electric guitar.

GUITAR

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Les_Paul

Nas and the 5 mic "Illmatic" came about because Mc Serch from 3rd Bass managed him and helped secure a deal from Columbia.

So a white dude saw his skill and introduced hip-hop to one of the most political and pro black emcees in the artform.

NAS
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nas

and some of the most aggressive pro black music has been created on electronics developed by Japanese and whites.
HIP-HOP and the MPC
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/MPC60

And don't make me bust out Rick Rubin....
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rick_Rubin

Point I am trying to make is , We all can do so much more together than seperate...
And also , Whites have done some positive things for Hip-Hop , Get off our backs about Vanilla , That was the 90's , Move on :)

I also believe that Bush helped bring the races together to a degree.
Because as each lie was exposed , so was the security of your common "Good Ole Boy"...
A large majority of white america figured out that their president didnt give a damn about them either...
It's WE THE PEOPLE against THEM....I am not saying that in a violent revolution way , I am saying that in a mental revolution way.

We MUST quit letting the enemy divide us ...
Both spiritual and physical...

And let me say this to any uppity racist of any color who looks down on another and hates and says they are ignorant because of their environment.
Allow me to suggest this here...
Knowledge and hope cure ignorance .... So next time you consider supporting a rocket to blow up the moon , We might instead consider putting $79 million into our school systems in our most impoverished areas...This might bring hope and excitement and self confidence and worth and maybe we take 10 million and set it aside and dedicate it to redoing those neighborhoods your scared to drive through....This would create jobs and generate revenue....WOW ! This might mean smarter and more caring people who have something to live for now that they have a nice learning environment and neighborhood , instead of run down schools with crooked politics ,crooked cops , grafitti and pot holes....ETC
Would you support that ?
That's right.... It's easier to complain and live in fear than to spend millions of dollars wisely for the empowerment of our people.

Man...Ya'll don't hear me....

Whatever your message or artform , another race had something to do with it.
We are all connected in this world and the sooner we realize this and accept it as fact , the sooner we can start to evolve.

Where would the world be without each of our unique contributions ?

Where could the world be if we were uniquely focused on our contributions?

So, I am a white man with a hispanic wife and Public enemy tattoo on my arm asking each of you to start looking at the individual across from you as an individual.
Realize they have lives they are living just like you are...
Realize you never know what the next person has been through or is going through....Don't rush to judge....

And think before you speak...

White people...PLEASE stop with the "Well the dictionary defines nigger as "ignorant" rant and especially the "I thought it was ok because I said "Nigga" instead of "Nigger" ... IT's NOT COOL...ANYTIME...Even if Sam Jackson himself tells you it's cool , in his house ... You tell Sam , Thanks but no thanks Sam Jackson!....You may even throw in a "MFing" In between Sam and Jackson to show you got some heart ....

All this should be basic knowledge by now....

How are you cats gonna discuss the immagration issue over enchiladas?

Most of the best people in my life have been Hispanic ...I appreciate and respect the culture ...
as well as every other culture that I learn from and that has shown me love ....Learn and do not fear each other.

Cause truth be told...No matter your race , were all looking for the same thing.....

Happiness.

We've tried everything else , Try truth and Love for a minute...
Peace and Blessings to all.
God Bless

"But he that hateth his brother is in darkness, and walketh in darkness, and knoweth not whither he goeth, because that darkness hath blinded his eyes. "

1 John 2:11

"And hath made of one blood all nations of men for to dwell on all the face of the earth, and hath determined the times before appointed, and the bounds of their habitation"

Acts 17:26

"Then Peter opened [his] mouth, and said, Of a truth I perceive that God is no respecter of persons: But in every nation he that feareth him, and worketh righteousness, is accepted with him. "

Acts 10:34-35

These [things] also [belong] to the wise. [It is] not good to have respect of persons in judgment.

Proverbs 24:23

The rich and poor meet together: the Lord [is] the maker of them all.

Proverbs 22:2

Scott Johnson
11/23/09
4:02 am

VERBAL VITAMIN 10 ... The B.I.B.L.E

2010-04-13T14:28:00.001-05:00

Verbal Vitamin 10 the B.I.B.L.E

Not just a track on the GZA Classic...Liquid Swords.
But there are Basic Instructions before leaving earth contained within the pages of the world’s most sold-debated-loved-hated book...The Holy Bible.

My own personal journey with the Bible is something I am figuring out.

I grew up going to church with my Grandmother (maw maw R.I.P) and then my mother and when I moved to Texas from W.Va and found my earliest friend, Mike Blume, His mother Bea took us kids to church on a somewhat regular basis...She would pull up in her car to wherever we were playing at and pile us in and take us to church...So this lady would walk in with 3 or 4 sweaty kids wearing Ozzy and Motley Crue shirts, But she didn’t care... (Or at least didn’t show it), what she cared about was these kids learning who Jesus was and is and making sure we had some knowledge of GOD.
(Then afterwards...It was PANCHOS time, a few of ya'll have raised the flag :)

I knew in my heart I had a calling at this early age, But when I fell into those teenage years I went WAY LEFT...We all did.

It took me getting stabbed and going through all of that drama to pick up my Bible again.
And so from the age of 17 to my mid 20's I read the Bible on a pretty regular basis.
At one point I would carry that lil red book in my back pocket...I was learning scripture , I was teaching people what I knew , I was even memorizing revelation...Then all the stuff happened with me and the church and I just slowly chilled out on it for almost a decade...

During these last few years I have been on a journey for truth...
I began speaking to God in a manner that some might find offensive...I questioned him.
I questioned him often, because my friends, you don't get answers until you question.

My argument always was and is, if I am supposed to dedicate my entire life to you and rep you, then your going to need to speak with and guide me.
I am not gonna claim you and put in work if your not doing the same for me.
In other words, a true relationship is needed….50/50.

This means I want the TRUTH about you...

I had already heard the Bible was full of contradictions...I heard this when I was young.

And as I grew more spiritual I began to question things myself...Like why GOD would want women to keep their mouth shut or to not be teachers in church...This did not make logical sense to me.

I figured, if you’re GOD and your main goal is to let people know about you and that they need to
Accept in and believe in your son in order to get to the Promised Land, You would take anyone willing to step out like that, as long as there intentions are pure and truthful, why would it matter the gender?

Then I started understanding that the words written in the Bible were written by men.
A man wrote this and if a man wrote this, due to my experience with human beings, it was a pretty safe bet there was mistakes in it.

Not only mistakes but personal views and opinions...So I began looking at how things were written, Ok, Did JESUS say this? Or did the author say this? Because if this is something the author said and didn’t say that it came from God himself, then that tells me that this is HIS interpretation and views on the matter...

So after my Dad died in September of 08, I again, Picked up the Bible.
My Father in law, Martin, would always come over to my house and quote proverbs to me.
This got me interested in reading proverbs and understanding them for myself.

So I challenged myself to read a few a night...and I genuinely began seeking knowledge and wisdom.
I began seriously praying for and seeking it and this other mental level started for me when I began to take proverbs and knowledge seriously.

PROVERBS 8
10. Take my instruction instead of silver, and knowledge rather than choice gold; 11. For wisdom is better than jewels, and all that you may desire cannot compare with her. 12. I, wisdom, dwell in prudence, and I find knowledge and discretion. 13. The fear of the Lord is hatred of evil. Pride and arrogance and the way of evil and perverted speech I hate. 14. I have counsel and sound wisdom, I have insight, I have strength. 15. by me kings reign, and rulers decree what is just; 16. By me prince’s rule and nobles govern the earth. 17. I love those who love me, and those who seek me diligently find me. 18. Riches and honor are with me, enduring wealth and prosperity. 19. My fruit is better than gold, even fine gold, and my yield than choice silver. 20. I walk in the way of righteousness, in the paths of justice, 21. Endowing with wealth those who love me, and filling their treasuries.

32. And now, my sons listen to me: happy are those who keep my ways. 33. Hear instruction and be wise, and do not neglect it. 34. Happy is the man who listens to me, watching daily at my gates, waiting beside my doors. 35. for he who finds me finds life and obtains favor from the Lord; 36. But he who misses me injures himself; all who hate me love death."

Reading proverbs daily changed me and took me to another level.

All the while though, my verbal communication was STILL more than what I was reading.

So I accepted the Bible and knew it was a powerful tool but at the same time, I knew there were some things wrong with it.

One night we went to Borders and as I was walking by the religious aisle, a book caught my eye...
"Misquoting Jesus, Who changed the Bible and why"...by Bart D.Ehrman
Wow, this is exactly what I have been dwelling on ...This book can hold some truth...BUT, I didn’t get it.
Some time went by and the Book was still heavy on my heart...
(That is how God works, with me at least; He will keep something heavy on my spirit until I do what he is leading me to do)
SO, I went back and got the book...

I read a little bit of it and then sat it down....for many months...

After finishing Violent Faith, I sought The Lord as to what to do next...READ, work out and Practice was what I was told…

So I picked this book up again, and finished it a few days ago.
I will now share with you, some of the truth discovered within these pages.

Everything I am quoting is from "Misquoting Jesus, Who changed the Bible and why"

Let me start with the Women.

“Modern Scholars have come to recognize that disputes over the role of women in the early church occurred precisely because women HAD a role – Often a significant and publicly high profile role. Moreover, this was the case from the very beginning, starting with the ministry of Jesus himself.”

“For as many of you as were baptized into Christ have put on Christ. There is neither Jew nor Greek, neither slave nor free; there is not male and female; for all of you are one in Jesus Christ.”
(Gal. 3:27-28)

“The equality in Christ may have manifested itself in the actual worship services of the Pauline communities. Rather than being silent “Hearers of the word,” women appear to have been actively involved in the weekly fellowship meetings , participating , for example, by praying and prophesying, much as the men did (1 Corinthians 11)”

“In some churches it was the equality in Christ that was emphasized; in others it was the need for women to remain subservient to men. And so in some churches women played very important, leadership roles; in others, their roles were diminished and their voices quieted.
Reading later documents associated with Paul’s churches, after his death, we can see that disputes arose about the roles women should play; eventually there came an effort to suppress the role of women in the churches altogether.

“This becomes evident in a letter that was written IN PAUL’S NAME.
Scholars today are by and large convinced that 1 Timothy was not written by Paul but by one of his later, second-generation followers.”

“11. Let a woman quietly receive instruction with entire submissiveness. 12. But I do not allow a woman to teach or exercise authority over a man, but to remain quiet. 13. For it was Adam who was first created, [and] then Eve. 14. And [it was] not Adam [who] was deceived, but the woman being quite deceived, fell into transgression. 15. But [women] shall be preserved through the bearing of children if they continue in faith and love and sanctity with self-restraint.”
1 Tim. 2:11-15

And also

1 Corinthians 14:34-35

“34. Let the women keep silent in the churches; for they are not permitted to speak, but let them subject themselves, just as the Law also says. 35. And if they desire to learn anything, let them ask their own husbands at home; for it is improper for a woman to speak in church.”

And so on the basis of a combination of evidence – several manuscripts that shuffle the verses around , the immediate literary context, and the context within 1 Corinthians as a whole – it appears that Paul did not write 1 Cor. 14:34-35
One would have to assume, then, that these verses are a scribal alteration of the text, originally made, perhaps as a marginal note and then eventually, at an early stage of the copying of 1 Corinthians, placed in the text itself.

This view came to be incorporated into the text itself, by means of textual alteration.”

And they also tried to take out the only place in the New Testament where a woman was referred to as an apostle.

Romans 16:7

Paul is referring to a woman named Junia; even though in some modern English Bibles translators continue to refer to this female apostle as if she were a man named Junias.”

Pretty Wild Right?

This was important for me to share with the ladies , I have always heard growing up that a woman shouldn’t preach, This always tripped me out when I saw female preachers…I wondered did they ignore that part or what?

Then like I said, I started questioning things and when I read all of that in the book, I wanted to share. I wanted to enlighten those ignorant to facts, just like I have been enlightened.
Don’t ever let a man tell you that you can’t worship or speak your knowledge on Christ.
If you feel it within, Step out boldly!

I also learned that MARK is the oldest of the Gospels and Mark was the template for Matthew and Luke.
John is a completely different and radical gospel in itself.

I also learned the last 12 verses of Mark were added later.

So I am now reading Mark and studying it and getting a better idea of who Jesus was from the oldest of the gospels, the most accurate of them according to textual critics.
and I am trippin out and questioning why Jesus always told the demons to shut up and would not let them speak , Because as it is written , The demons knew his identity...The son of God. Why didn't Jesus want this known? My opinion right now is that the demons may have helped convince everyone in Christ and everyone couldnt be convinced because the crucifixion HAD to happen....As of right now , These are my thoughts on that.

And Finally I will leave you with the Top Ten verses that were not originally in the New Testament.
I am not typing them for you, I have copied enough J
DO SOME RESEARCH!

1. 1 John 5:7
2. John 8:7
3. John 8:11
4. Luke 22:44
5. Luke 22:20
6. Mark 16:17
7. Mark 16:18
8. John 5:4
9. Luke 24:12
10. Luke 24:51

Also from the book
" To be sure, of all the hundreds of thousands of textual changes found among our manuscripts, most of them are completely insignificant , immaterial , of no real imporatance for anything other than showing that scribes could not spell or keep focused any better than the rest of us."

He follows this by speaking on the importance of the interpretation of the scriptures that HAVE been changed...
Which I have given you the most profound ones...

Once again, “Misquoting Jesus” was a very interesting read for me and part of my journey I am on. I recommend it.

Once the author really started discovering and researching the manuscripts and from reading them in Hebrew and Greek, He saw so much he didn’t like, He lost faith in the Lord.

And I could easily see how discovering some of these additions and what they omitted would shake a person…Make them question their faith.

But for me, it has increased my faith and relationship and brought me a step closer to the truth.
I WELCOME science with my faith...And I welcome discovering the deeper truth.

For one, there is nothing changed within the Bible that takes away from the crucifixion and resurrection of Jesus Christ.
This is obviously very important to any believer…

And for my other obvious reason, books and programs that “Reveal” the bible, always leave out the most important element…The Spiritual Element…

Yes the Bible is not PERFECT in a scientific way or a literary way and probably other ways I dont know of , But if you lose faith because of this , this personally tells me that you may have great knowledge of the scripture but you seriously lack a personal relationship with God...Your ears are not sensitive to the spirit within you.
You are a textbook believer...and not a spiritual being...

DESPITE the "Mistakes" there is absolutely no way to deny that the words contained within the Bible have completely transformed countless lives.
As I have pointed out before , This book contains timeless knowledge and wisdom...Timeless

These people leave out the impact it has on a personal/ Spiritual level.
How you can pick it up and read for a lil while and something inside of you will begin speaking to you...
Or the times you read and what you read dealt directly with an issue you were facing or described you or someone you know...
Or the feelings of comfort and peace they can bring to a crushed heart or broken spirit...
How the words can empower you and give you hope...
How they can open up your mind to a higher level of knowledge..
or how sometimes the Lord will tell you to read a scripture and it's EXACTLY what you needed or how he will tell someone else to tell you to read a certain scripture or he tells you to tell someone else...Whoever / However , someone is going to be impacted by the words contained.

So never allow the physical to override the supernatural that comes along with this book.

Often times when your reading , this is the best time to hear God's voice , This is where the spirit starts teaching you...
SO , the word is the doorway...The word is the doorway.

Even though I had not read the word on a regular basis in a very long time and I grew leaps and bounds from the verbal , I had to ask myself honestly how I got to that point.

Rom 10:17
So faith [comes] from hearing, and hearing by the word of Christ.

If I had never heard the Word (from the Bible AND my inner spirit) , I would have never knew God.
So there again , I couldnt deny the power of the Bible , Because if I hadn't heard or read first , I would have never gained the faith to be where I am today.

So my conclusion is this.
No matter what is revealed about the Bible , There is no way the spiritual and Wisdom and supernatural power can be denied...
IF you spend time and seek...This book will elevate every area of your life.
there is a deeper level that comes after the Bible but the Bible is your "Ground Zero".

I had previously said that the author had recommended the HOLMON Study Bible .( which I have and is excellent at being as acurate as possible )
I have to correct my mistake , The Author says the Harper Collins Study Bible is his reccomendation.

Whatever Bible you possess , It wont do you a bit of Good till you crack it open and apply it to your life...
Out of those words , God speaks...I do not fully understand how...But I do understand it brings understanding :)

I highly suggest to anyone who would like to help me start the trend of intelligence to start by reading your proverbs...

God Bless you all and Thanks for reading and please believe I will always do my best to give you the honest truth...
I seek it and I am hungry for it and he is revealing things to me , which in turn , I reveal to those interested.

As always , If you have knowledge , Please share.

Peace and Blessings
Scott Johnson
11-12-09
3:51 AM

P.S.
I felt led to remind the reader , That these are my views and opinions and I sincerely try to present them to you in a way that cannot be argued against.
A way so logical that everyone can see the truth I speak.

But in the end , This is my interpretation...Everyone takes something different from the word of God , which is why we have so many religions and false doctrines now.
So my mission is to get rid of all disctractions and find out what exactly Jesus said to do and follow THAT.
And from my knowledge up to this point , THAT IS ... LOVE
Love Yourself , Love your neighbor , Do not exalt anything in your life to a God like status other than God himself.
If you really think about , The majority of us follow the ten commandments....I believe the enemy comes in and distracts believers with so much religion and Dogma they fail to see the simplicity of the message...LOVE.

We get tied up in trying to out shine each other instead of elevating each other...
We are covered by Grace...Accept , Believe , Love and everything else will into place in your life.
If what your doing is not right , You will lose the desire to do it and you wont even miss it when it's gone.
You can't buy your way in , donate your way in , dress your way in , etc...
Just BELIEVE and LOVE.

Point is , These are my beliefs and I give them to you. Accept them or not..
I believe I am right....Then again , So do suicide Bombers...
Find out Your truth , do your research and Never tell me it aint real if you havent sincerely spent some time with it.

SEEK AND YOU WILL FIND!

And The Prophet Says...

2010-04-13T14:27:00.000-05:00

I went to see the Prophets last night...

I have already stated my wife went and what she was told has begun to manifest in her life , This showed me there was validity in the words of the people who spoke over her...

I am not talking about prophets who say the world is ending in 2012 and what not...
Or whatever image pops in your mind when I say Prophet , Ya'll might be picturing a Gandolph type dude speaking very loud and shakespear like....

These are men and women being used by God to bring messages or to confirm what is usually already inside of you...
You know those times where you feel it in your spirit but your just not positive , Your conflicted ?
These people confirm your thoughts and the Lord speaks through them and brings a word to you...

This occurs the first friday of every month at this church in Bedford and I had made up my mind I was going to be there , I missed the first two trips , So this time , It was goin down.

This was a very important trip for me because I needed confirmation on whether or not I was right in my beliefs or I am a lunatic with delusions of Grandeur.

Some of ya'll wondering what is for dinner...I am wondering whether or not I am insane.

So I make it to the church and sign my name to have prophetic ministry.
You gotta pay a dollar for the cassette that they record your prophecy on...I gave them 4 quarters and found my seat.

I have not been inside a church, outside of funerals, in quite a long time.
I was the dude in the black leather jacket and converse on the back row , Anxiously awaiting to hear something to justify what I have been doing... or...That I have been Wasting my time ...Either way , I needed to hear from the Lord.

So Sandie Freed and her husband , Mick, come out and start speaking to the people..

Sandie says this is a special night and she can feel the spirit strong in the building...And truthfully , I did as well.
Just a feeling throughout the building , a very strong peacefull and positive vibe.
The spirit was moving...

As she was speaking , She kept staring at me ... Maybe she noticed me staring at her , I dont know.
I just know this lady is published author and called a Prophetess and now she is looking at me.

SO she starts calling people to the front and praying over them.

She speaks over one and then another and then I hear "The gentlemen in the back row with the leather Jacket..Come here please"

I immediately walk up ... This is what I came here for right?
And this was happening before the service has even gotten into full swing...I have been called to the front...She lays her hand on my head and begins to speak...

" Lord I just pray for Scott , Lord I thank you he came hungry , he came wanting to hear and he came so that heaven could touch him...And the Lord says , Surely Son , I have not forgotten you and I am not leaving you out of my end time plans says the Lord and God says there is nothing that you could do that would ever cause me to stop loving you ...

and the lord says, This is a new day...and the Lord says I am closing a door to your past and I am opening up a fresh new way says the Lord and the Lord says I am delivering you from the oppression of your past and even the generational curse that has tried to come upon you and even take you out before your time...The Lord says it has been broken off this day Says God...

And the Lord says SON you are now recieving my bloodline , You have my blood flowing through your body and my blood is healing certain areas of weaknesses , Generational infirmities and iniquities..The Lord says it's being removed...Even now...Because of my love for you says the Lord...And the Lord says because I love you I GIVE YOU THE KEYS OF VICTORY and the Lord says I am opening the book to the future for you tonight says the Lord...Which means that your future is coming forward and you will no longer be held captive...You will no longer feel betrayed and left out..For you are a SON...

And surely says the Lord, I am releasing a sonship impartation upon you tonight says the Lord...
We recieve that sonship...Charge him Holy Ghost...Jesus! In the name of Jesus..."

and that was that...

WOW !

A nice man by the name of John hands me a cassette and I give him back the one I bought...
I put the recorded Prophecy in my pocket and when I got home I transcribed the words , From a handheld casstte player with low batteries and no rewind button.
(This is called dedication :)

I have never seen or met any of these people in my life and this is what was spoken over me.

She touched on a Generational curse that tried to take me out before my time.

This is interesting to me because she had no way of knowing I had been stabbed to death and returned...

Or the history of my family...

Or that I have been really trying to teach people to break their own curses of their families...

Ya'll know...The "Runs in the family" disease ... Yeah , That needs to end.
Alcoholism , Racism , Violence , Spousal abuse , Making multiple babies with multiple people, Suicide , Depression and every other "Family Tradition" we like to keep in our closet or somehow Justify...Ya'll know what's up...

She touched on what I had been speaking to God about in the privacy of my home...His words spoken through her have given me confirmation that all of this I am doing and how crazy I look to some of ya'll will be rewarded and the truth will be made known...In other words...I will be Justified.

I stayed for the rest of the service and I was very impressed with the teaching Of Prophet Mick Freed...

He spoke about being who God made you to be and finding and working your calling and not being a sheep...I have these same views as many of you know.
So to hear someone else speak ,the way I think , felt good.

The crowd was mixed with all nationalities and these people worshipped and got excited for Christ.
The music was good and everyone was clapping and singing...

I found myself being shy in public to do what I do so boldly at home...
I gotta work that out... :)

I looked up the word IMPARTATION...This means To give or share a portion of... to reveal.

So I write these things as proof to the unbelievers out there and to the belivers who are confused.
When you see things happen in my life , You will know without a doubt in your mind who has elevated me.

and as always , This is for his glory and not for my own.

What do I personally have to gain by telling all of you this ?
My reasons for doing this are never ego driven or even now to say " I told you so"...

I will be made an example , so that you will believe...

If your ever interested in this , Here is the link to the site.
http://zionministries.us/Zion/

Now we see what happens...

Peace and Blessings
Scott Johnson
11/07/09
6:37 Pm

VERBAL VITAMIN 9 ... Just Imagine

2010-04-13T14:25:00.000-05:00

Today I will challenge you to imagine the hardest thing of all....

I want YOU To imagine being who you were born to be.

All week I have had you imagine wild images and scenarios that more than likely will never take place in your life...UNLESS , You wanna shave a Grizzly bear from the neck down. (Let us know how that works out )

And all of you had no problems closing your eyes or seeing in your minds eye what I ask you to see.
as wild as it was...

Then why is it so difficult for some of you out there to see yourself being or doing what you were put upon this earth for?

JEREMIAH 1:5
I chose you before I formed you in the womb ; I set you apart before you were born.

As I have stated before , we are all here for a specific reason.
Each of us possess a certain talent that contributes positively to mankind in some way...

As I have grown older I have realized the effects that children can have on your goals and dreams.

Before anyone makes a call to CPS on me , Let me clarify...

When you become a parent , obviously, your goals and plans change ...You MUST live your life for your children , take care of , teach , nurture , love , be a PARENT to your miracle.

BUT what happens to so many when this happens is in the process of raising children , the parent loses their own identity...

"I can't do that anymore!" , "I wish I could do that!" , "I used to do that!"

Sound familiar?

We as adults cannot lose who we are...We simply must rearrange the schedule.

My son has played youth basketball the last several years and I always get strange looks from the parents...

YES I still listen to loud music , YES I still wear T-shirts with Rock bands on them , YES I am a "Rapper" , YES I play basketball with my friends , YES YES YES...

I STILL do what I love to do and I still work towards the goals that I have.
and I am STILL a loving Father and Husband through it all.

Just because we have kids doesnt mean we have to stop doing what we love or stop believeing in the dreams we have or had.

I have met sooo many people in my life that say ," I used to"...

I vowed never to be like that...

Parents end up letting the kids make them feel guilty for being who they are or want to be.
FORGET THAT!
They came from US...How can I let a dude in skinny jeans dictate what I like?
How can you let your teenager make you feel uncool?

So what happens?

The cycle continues...We end up living for our kids instead of being who we were born to be and INVOLVING our children in our journey and being with them step by step as they discover their own.

How many people out there are rollin around depressed and angry and bitter and refilling their anti-depressants just to cope with life?

While your child dictates YOUR LIFE and determines what is cool for you to say or do....

I got my kids asking me why I am listening to certain bands...I must remind them..."Who turned YOU onto this? , That's right...I DID"

What I am saying is , we all need to go home and smack our kids and grab them by the shirts and scream in their faces .."IT'S MY LIFE !!!!"

NO! , I take that back...That would be a bad idea...

What you CAN do without scarring your children mentally and you ending up in jail is this....

Take a deep breath and exhale...Remember what YOU like and pray for guidance or for open doors to acheive what you have always wanted to achieve.
and DO NOT let your children or anyone around you tell you your too old or it's past time.

Once I started reading the Old Testament , I saw most legendary people of God didnt start their mission till they were OLD...Like 70 or 80..So how can you tell me I am too old for something in my 30's?

If you pay attention , Kids run this world...Listen to the radio , Look at TV.
Notice in the commercials that the parents are always made out to be uncool idiots...
Look at your mindless sitcoms...
Notice a lack of grown up lyrics in music...Notice the food commercials...
The majority of marketing and entertainment is geared toward our kids and makes us look like we are clueless and out of touch...But who pays for all of this? THE PARENTS.
It's time we take back what is ours and quit letting teenage vampires run the world.

God has put a calling into each of us...and if you do not know what your calling is , All I can say is , Start praying and genuinely seeking what your purpose is.

What are you great at? What interest you? what have you always had a knack for?

And please dont write in and say Porn...

If thats your knack , then what is SECOND?...Do that :)

It can be done and once again I offer proof...

My wife is now going to school online for buisness at Phoenix...Yes , It's credited.

But how she got there is what is remarkable to me.

She had been having dreams about buisness and always had an interest in it since high school , but like so many others...
Tied up with a current job and kids and felt there was no way to do it.

She wasnt even sure of what she wanted to do...So she kept praying and praying and that is when God started showing her through dreams , that buisness was to be the calling.

But she still wasnt sure ...

So this church had a 'Prophecy' meeting.

She went and was prayed over...
They even recorded the session..Got the cassette upstairs...

The people praying over her told her that GOD had given her a mind for buisness and he would open doorways to move her into her calling...

Couple weeks go by , she applies and gets in.
She tells me..."Well , I start school on Monday....Paid for"

WOW !

That quick? that quick....

We were going through a tough time financially recently and the school called her and told her that the grants had been overpaid and they were cutting her a check...

So not only did God show her through dreams , He confirmed through a prophet and then got her into college , paid for it and gave her some cash back.

That is Powerful...

Ofcourse I do all I can to help her , but some of her classmates are single mothers with multiple kids and they are still making it happen...Once I saw how the process worked , I saw it's mostly like what all of us do on these message boards all day... You gotta chatroom and you offer opinions and you turn your work in on the website and get graded there. Same style set up as these sites....But your learning what you have a calling for and what could elevate your status in real life.

Is it easy on her? not at all...
She is stressed out-lol
BUT...

"He that has done a good work in you, is faithful to complete it in Christ Jesus" Philippians 1:6

Point is...She sought what her calling was and is now on the path.
It is not easy, but with dedication , she will become who she was created to be and I am very proud of her and amazed at the power of prayer...

Good news is , this is available to you as well...If you know what your here for , then I encourage you to make the effort to achive your dreams...Take it up in prayer and if it's your true calling , a door will be opened for you.

If you have no idea why your here on this earth, once again , take it up in prayer and you will eventually find out what your calling is and you can go from there.

NEVER let your present situation control your future blessings...
This is where the enemy uses lack of Patience against you...
STAY ON COURSE!

I felt compelled to get this message out there to people my age...To show you what is taking place in my family , can just as easily take place in yours...SEEK AND YOU WILL FIND.

"Sometimes I sit and wonder what If I was 10 years younger-Then I gotta come back like F*** that ! I'd be 10 years dumber" Scott Johnson

Onto you younger cats...

When your a teen , you think you know it all...Nobody can school you on anything....

when your in your 20's , you realize how much of a dumb ass you were in your teens and when you get in your 30's , That is when it all starts making some sort of sense.( IMO)

I feel like I am entering the prime of my life right now...Mentally and physically and spritually...Financially is next :)

What I am saying to the youth is , if you do not take knowledge seriously now , you will get in your 30's and be confused and lost...Time flies...You hit 18...then 21...then 25 and then BAM 30 is upon you.
That quick!

What I am trying to teach , especially to the youth is...START NOW...appreciate your mind and body NOW.

If you can raise your mental above other peoples opinions and quit trying to live for a false image that wont mean a damn thing next year , you will be unstoppable.

If you realize the Gangsta , the pimp and the drug dealer are false idols and that your life has so much more meaning , you will be a great leader instead of statistical bleeder or in the pen.

Or to quit walking around depressed and in your emo phase...I wanna smack kids like you sometimes..
WAKE UP!!!! Enjoy your life! Quit being a slave to the spirit of depression.

We have been given power to be KINGS and QUEENS on earth and then evolve even more when we pass from this life.

IT'S THERE FOR THE TAKING! , GO GET IT!

Open your eyes and break the cycle...

This all leads back to a personal relationship with God and like I will always tell you...Just speak to him and learn to listen and your whole life will change.

Orite , Thank you for reading this , I hope I have inspired at least one of you out there.

It's time to not only imagine yourself being more than who you are , but to make it a reality.

God Bless
Respect...

Scott Johnson
www.scottjohnsononline.com

VERBAL VITAMIN 8 ... STFU

2010-04-13T14:17:00.001-05:00

STEP THE FAITH UP! I'm about to give you a little somethin somethin that will increase your faith if you devote some time to it.

Jesus saith unto him, Thomas, because thou hast seen me, thou hast believed: blessed are they that have not seen, and yet have believed.
John 20:29

When you get a few minutes , I am asking you to write down EVERY want or need you have.
This should be easy for you...We all know definately what we need and most of us know what we want..

This goes for everything in your life...
From Spirtual , Physical , Financial , Material and a couple more words that end with al...

For instance on my list , I have perfect eyesight written down along with the finest suits and Hats and classic cars , Health , Physical fitness , the luxury to work with any artist I want to , etc...

I also have family goals and to be debt free...

WHATEVER your want or need , PLEASE write it down.

Once you have this list written down , Here is part two of the process...

EVERY SINGLE DAY , at least once a day...You touch that list and simply say...THANK YOU LORD.

This is all I am asking you to do.

Thank him for what is unseen or unpossessed NOW and do this until the items on your list are SEEN.

I would not be telling you this , if it did not work...

I got something huge from the spirit world not to long...Took me a YEAR of daily thanks , But I recieved.

A YEAR? I dont have a year to do this!

Sure you do , Because if it is on your list , YOU DO NOT HAVE IT ANYWAY.
So what is it hurting you? What are you losing ?

Write it down and Thank him for it ...Speak in present tense...THANK YOU LORD THIS IS DONE.
Believe it is done and go on about your life...Everyday , Thank him.

If you do this daily and stand on some of the scripture I will provide below , You will see results.

You know the saying "Nothing is free"....Same with GOD....You work for your blessings to a certain degree. You do this by confessing with your mouth , reading the word and exercising your faith.

Just like anything else , You get out of it , what you put into it.

And I will offer this disclaimer or fine print...

You write a million dollars on that list , You will get a million...
But he isnt just going to hand you a million , if this were the case , we would all be rich.

He will however bless you with the ideas and help open doors to put you into that situation.
How long would that take? I dont know , That's between ya'll....
That also involves your obedience.

You may end up back in school or starting your own buisness....
This is why I am telling all of you to start talking and develop that personal relationship...

I will also say this again because it is of extreme importance.

JUST TALK TO HIM LIKE YOU DO ANYONE ELSE...With the same respect you would a loving father...
Share your problems , jokes , ideas , concerns , etc...JUST TALK.
Whether in your mind or with your mouth , doesnt matter...

You do not need to be in church to do this or on your knees or with a candle lit or anything else traditional...(Until you can get in your church or at home)

Anytime and anywhere...In the car , at work , mowing the grass , etc...

You start showing some faith and thanking him daily for your list , you will see some things...

In closing , I will also provide you with some scripture...You can throw at GOD...

It is IMPOSSIBLE for GOD to lie...SO throw his word at him..YOU PROMISED THIS!...

I give you a seed - You Water - God gives the increase.

BE PATIENT and BE DILLIGENT and you will see results...

God Bless
Scott Johnson
10/07/09
4:17 PM

Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.

Matthew 11:29

But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, [even] to them that believe on his name:

John 1:12

Jesus answered and said unto them, This is the work of God, that ye believe on him whom he hath sent.

John 6:29

Jesus said unto her, I am the resurrection, and the life: he that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live: And whosoever liveth and believeth in me shall never die. Believest thou this?

John 11:25-26

I am come a light into the world, that whosoever believeth on me should not abide in darkness.

John 12:46

Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me.

Revelation 3:20

VERBAL VITAMIN 7 ... WAR

2010-04-13T14:15:00.001-05:00

VERBAL VITAMIN 6 ... FORGIVE ME ?

2009-10-03T19:01:00.001-05:00

Ye have heard that it hath been said, Thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy. But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;

Matthew 5:43-44

YOU ORDERED THE STEAK?

Orite Brothers and Sisters , I have told you why I am doing this ...
I have given you information regarding both Jesus and Satan...
I have expressed my views on certain church folk...
I have given you the information on how to accept Christ...

Now that the formal introductions are over , We gon start unwrapping the mummy...

ALL OF US are wrapped like mummies to a certain degree.
Some of us are wrapped up in drama , Some in Fear , Some in Hate , Some in depression , Some in anger, Some in bitterness , Some in racism , etc... Everyone of us are wrapped up in something.

a couple years ago , My mother in law prayed over my wife and I...She spoke a Prophecy over us both.
and the word has been manifesting ever since...I was told GOD saw I was a patient man and my time was coming , He was preparing the heart of the one who would help me and in the meantime , He had to chisel the rock...

When he broke out the chisel , I started having to face myself and answer the tough questions HONESTLY...I had to admit to and do things I did not like , BUT , I was obedient and now I am a better man for it today...

This is a life long process of continual self improvement , but you know the saying,
"A journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step"..

You didnt know that saying? My bad , I assumed you did...I am somewhat embarrassed now.
But not enough to stop writing...

So if your down , The first layer that needs to be unwrapped is unforgiveness.

"Oh no he didn't!" ...Oh yeah , I did...And I'll do it again!

The first layer that needs to be unwrapped is unforgiveness.

Dont threaten me!

You cant run around and profess to be in the love of God or expect God to bless you when you have a heart full of unforgiveness...It just wont work.

I honestly have forgiven everyone that has ever wronged me, unless there is some hidden anger in me.
I feel clean about everyone and it feels good...

Dont tell me you CANT do it , You CAN..Question is , Do you want to?

Some of you are still walking around with huge boulders of unforgiveness on your shoulders...

Your upset because you got cheated on or lied to or someone said this about you or you got fired from your job or your still angry at your parents or other family members...

One thing I had to ask myself was..Is the person I am angry at , thinking about me in the same way?
Are they wasting time in their mind dwelling over what could have been done or should have been done or said?

99% of the time they are not...
WHY?
Because they offended YOU...Now they may be thinking about someone who offended THEM , But more than likely they are not thinking about you...

So wasting time dwelling on something that has happened in the past or even the recent past is not only unhealthy but a HUGE weapon the enemy uses against you to keep you in bondage.

TRUST ME , I was in bondage by the spirit of unforgiveness for many many years...

Watch this...

My first day of quitting smoking was tough , Honestly , I still want to light up from time to time..
But on that first day , I watched a documentary on Miles Davis that helped me.

Miles had a heroine addiction and he locked himself up at his parents house and kicked it cold turkey...

I thought , If Miles could do that , I can do this...and he inspired me.

So I pray I inspire you with what I am about to say...

For years and years I wanted to kill the Man who stabbed me.
I would lay in bed and dream of different ways to murder him...Revenge consumed me.

Then a year or so ago , I looked at the man who stabbed me from his perspective.
Someone I was in the same gang with had killed his brother in law and somehow my name got thrown in the mix...SO , This dude was under the impression that I had something to do with the murder.

ALTHOUGH I DID NOT...I WAS GUILTY BY ASSOCIATION.

So , He basically came in and sought revenge for the death of his family member...
He forever changed my life (And ruined my modeling career :)

I can Joke now , But for years and years this obviously was something that tormented me and due to the violent nature of the act it opened doorways for demons of all kinds...

Then I asked myself this , What if someone killed my brother in law?
Would I seek revenge? The answer at the time was YES...I would want to kill whoever took my family member from me and possibly whoever was involved...

When I put myself in the shoes of the man who murdered me ...I saw why he did it.
I am not saying I approve of it and I am not saying his action is a correct response...But I understood the motive..Even though it happened to me and I was completely innocent , I had matured to the point to see the motive of his actions...

And I forgave him...
I now pray for him...

Once I did this , I set myself free from THAT particular bondage and the devil no longer had control of my mind in that area.

The weight that had been on me for sooooo many years had been removed...
The Lord opened my eyes to a whole nother level of maturity and I am thankfull...

So I say this with all sincerity , PLEASE let that be an example to you and inspire you to forgive whoever has wronged you.

ESPECIALLY if it was just some words...DO NOT LET THE ENEMY SHACKLE YOU ANOTHER SECOND.

If the offense that was committed against you is less than Murder , Let it go now...
Call-email -text ," I forgive you"...Get it out , let it go and move on with your life.
This does not mean you have to rekindle a relationship , hang out with or even talk to that person again.
What it does do is gets that person out of your mind and you free up space for some positive thoughts.

When the enemy tries to bring up the situation again , IMMEDIATELY pray for whoever offended you.
"Lord , Thank you for being with..." And watch how fast the devil flees from you..
My friend Chris Wiggins told me , "It is impossible to hate someone your praying for" and he is exactly right...

Now if it is murder or molestation or abuse of any kind , I understand your pain...

some crimes that seriously anger me are RAPE , Molestation and Child Abuse.

I havent been through any of them but I have met people who have been and I see the mental damage it causes...It forever changes you...

Those offenses open doorways to demons of guilt and anger and confusion and fear and countless other spirits that attack your mind....

You have already been tormented enough!
When you forgive though , The shear magnitude of the act of forgiveness shakes the core of hell and sets you free in the process...
This enables the Lord to come in and Heal that hole in your soul...

Writing and speaking with people about your expierience also helps with the healing.
EVEN if it's just a personal journal , Once you get it on paper , it's out of you.

We all have people in our lives that have done us dirty in one way or another and we all have people in our lives that we have done dirty in one way or another...

So I ask you , Sometime this weekend , Make a list of everyone who has offended you...
Offer it to GOD , Pray over it and then Burn it...Get rid of it....Peel that layer off.

"But Scott ! You dont know what this person did to me! "

No I dont , But I do know this , If you commit a crime or revenge in the physical , You will eventually get caught and you can do no one any good in prison..And that cycle of violence starts again.

So now your mad behind bars with ALOT of people who are also mad..That is no way to live.

If you dont want to forgive because of stubborness or pride , then your wasting potential space for life changing ideas because your mind is filled with hostility....Your wasting precious life.

As soft as it may sound ...LOVE CONQUERS ALL.
It truly does...

Set yourself free...
I hope to speak to you Monday knowing that your soul is lighter.

God bless
Scott Johnson

VERBAL VITAMIN 5 ... ANY GIVEN SUNDAY

2009-10-03T19:00:00.000-05:00

What I am about to type is some of my personal opinions and if you get offended , This shows me that my opinions have crossed the line into facts...

I Just got off the phone with someone very close to me , Someone I respect and Love...
Someone I know is a warrior for Christ...

They have been going through some health issues lately and we are all in agreement for healing.

But they told me something tonight that really angered me , which led to this writing...

They told me members of the church they attend have said they must be living in sin because they are still sick....REALLY?

Living in sin huh?

Creflo Dollar just got through preaching a sermon about not being offended because offense will lead you out of the circle of love...I agree with this...

But I also feel that being offended can sometimes drive you to the point where you do some soul cleansing...Get that closet full of emotions cleaned out..

So , I have been offended one too many times and this is the direct result of it.

This person I love is NOT living in sin and it sickens me that a group of people would even tell them that.

This is along the lines of my aunts church telling my VISITING mother that if she didnt speak in tongues she would go to hell...

Or the time I gave my testimony at a spanish speaking church...

I had a translator who spoke with me..After I was done , My spanish friend who was in the audience asked me if I understood what was said ...No , I replied...
The dude said.. that because my mother and I were strong adventist , God spared my life....

well......WE ARE NOT ADVENTIST.

Or when I requested to share my testimony on a certain high profile preachers talk show...I was denied but they asked me to become a paid partner....

Or when my local church wouldnt contribute money to help me print up copies of my testimony to give to Gang members cause it wasnt in the budget...Yet a few weeks later , They have brand new basketball goals.

Or Guidepost magazine rejecting my testimony because it was "Too harsh" for their publication.

Yes...The church has offended me in the past...and obviously , The present.

Here recently , I forgave all of my issues with the church and decided to return...3 times I tried to go back...The first time, I had a gall stone attack and went to the E.R. , 2nd time we didnt have the gas money , and on my third try , I found out a few days before that sunday, that the pastor of the church I was trying to go to , had took millions from his previous church...

This inspired the song VIOLENT FAITH.

But here is the genius of God..He knew that would infuriate me to the point , I would preach myself and step into the destiny I had been running from for so many years.

I told my wife , "If I cant trust anyone , I'll do it myself" and for the last few months , This is exactly what I have been doing...

I am not on a church bashing mission...Please do not take this the wrong way , Read this with maturity and read my words carefully.

NOT ALL CHURCHES - PASTORS - MEMBERS ARE CORRUPT.
That would be a sterotype...and I know all of the blacks who steal , the 8 mexicans in one car and the whites who are tongue kissing their dogs and calling blacks and mexicans pal ,know about sterotypes.

If you know your word , It says to try the spirits , So if your pastor is preaching honestly and with logic from the bible and your happy at your church , By all means , Praise God and stay where you feel led to stay.

If your genuinely happy serving the Lord in your church , Stay where your at...My purpose with this post is not to sway people from going to church...My purpose is to show people who seem to be confused that I don't attend church...why I dont attend church ...and for those who dont attend church , I want to show you that you can still have a realtionship with Christ where your at, until if and when he leads you to a trustworthy church.

I have church in my living room nightly..
I watch preaching nightly and have been reading daily...So I roughly get over ten hours a week of televised word , not to mention the studying I do on my own...

I have a continual debate with a friend of mine who just cant grasp why I dont go to a physical church.

If you look at the hours I put in , I already have more church at home in one week than most do in a month outside of their home.

and when and if the Lord directs me to a church , I will gladly go...
Or when he blesses me with the finances , I'll build my own.

For the time being though , I am learning everyday from the comfort of my own home.
I honestly feel , The word you get is more important than where you get it.

Would the Lord rather you participate in some fashion or none at all?

I feel the church as a whole needs a make over....

WHY do so many people refuse or hate to go to church?

There are many reasons...From fakeness , to being burnt in the past , to what they have seen or heard in the media , to false prophets who have stolen money from believers , to simply not believeing in God , to feeling unworthy , rejected , Scandals of molestation , and sometimes the demons within a person are so great , The very idea of stepping into a church makes their skin crawl....

However you look at it ,ALOT of People miss out on a relationship with Christ due to the church.

Why is a majority of the church so unhappy?

I have a few opinions...

Number one and most importantly to me is , Once people accept Christ , they start living for man.

Make sense?

Once people accept Christ , they start living for man.

The main commandments , the MAIN things...Have no other Gods before GOD and LOVE Your neighbor as yourself...The main thing is LOVE..LOVE...LOVE..Hey ! QUE? , you know what the main thing is? LOVE!

Someone gets born again , Accepts Christ and goes to church.

Now all of a sudden , they got 50 different people telling them what they cant do any longer because they now serve the Lord...

You cant dress like that ! You cant listen to That ! You cant go here! You cant talk like that !
You Cant sing like that! You cant worship like that! and countless other things you CANT do...

SO they get overwhelmed...and when they backslide , The enemy slides in..

When you accept the Lord , The things that arent healthy for you will work themselves out...
Your desire for what is out of the will of GOD will fade naturally...

GOD will handle you properly once you accept him , You will eventually live to your full potential.
When you accept him and learn to follow your spirit , You will be worked out.

NONE of us like to be told what to do and when you suddenly have people telling you what to do , the spirit of rebellion that is already embedded in us becomes amplified and the enemy moves in , hardens your heart and your gone...Let God handle people , All you need to do is PRAY for them and tell them something ONLY when the Lord directs you to speak...Anything other than that comes from your own pride or anger that their doing something you dont do any longer and still have a desire to do.

So what happens to alot of new Christians?

That person becomes what the pastor and the church want them to become and now you gotta buncha Robots who tell you how to live ...

Then that person becomes depressed and grows bitter and loses sight of what is important..LOVE and CHRIST.

Each of us on the face of this earth has a calling , a mission , a purpose , Your not just here to take up space...Alot of christians supress their true calling in life cause they are living for what the church wants and not what God wants...They live their life for the eyes of the church and not Christ...which like I said , leads to secret bitterness and having to hide what they still do in private and demonize themselves and when the truth surfaces...all hell breaks lose.

This is why the way I speak and write trips so many out , But GOD made me outspoken , it's embedded in me...If I live and speak the way certain people would like me to live and speak then you would be putting a harness on who I really am which would make me resent you...Trust me , God has taken ALOT of layers off of me in the last two years...I'll speak on that later.

Alot of people once they get in, leave it there once they get out in the parking lot.

No further reading or studying or conversating with God accept for the hour every sunday or two and we all know the people who only go during holidays....

I recently saw a documentary that suggested with church members is where Satan does some of his best work and if you look around...That appears to be true.

Some go for the Fashion show , To be seen , to show off that suit or dress.
Some go to pick up dates..
People go to church for many reasons and sadly not enough of those reasons are for a genuine love of God.

Alot of people do not go to church because of fear of rejection , They fear once their past is known the church will look down on them and alot of times , they will...

There are alot of people in church right now showing up with a mask on...like a Holy luchador.

Then they get in the parking lot , Light a square , go home and watch football , get drunk and eat hot wings....Why did you even go?
(Then they curse ROMO for choking and wish harm upon him :) Which leads them to greater sin...)

This is why I say It needs a make over , I somewhat understand How Jesus felt when he went in and started turning over tables...He was frustrated at what a place of worship had become.

This is why I am preaching a personal relationship with Christ so heavily....

If your not going to church for whatever reason, I am not here to judge you on that , I do not want you to miss out on becoming who you were born to be and having a deeper understanding of GOD because you have issues with the church...

DO NOT LET RELIGION KEEP YOU FROM BEING SPIRITUAL!

DO NOT LET RELIGION KEEP YOU FROM BEING SPIRITUAL!

DO NOT LET RELIGION KEEP YOU FROM BEING SPIRITUAL!

Come to the Lord as you are ...
Dont worry about your appearance , your past , that freakiness you did in college , that money you took from big mama , all them lies you told , those times you cheated , and whatever else the enemy throws at you to keep you from being your best...

Come as you are...Start by talking to Jesus....

The rest will work out.

I dont care if you cant see him...

I will again use this...YOU CANT SEE WIND BUT YOU CAN FEEL IT.
You cant see Aroma but you can smell it...

You have belief in what you cant see every day , The reason you believe is because one or more of your senses are touched...

The spirit of the Lord will touch your senses in the same way , If you allow it.
God is a gentlemen , He wont force himself on anyone...

If you dont want to go to church , God will bring church to you...Just invite him over.

Dont let CHURCH keep you from knowing GOD...

If you sincerely seek , You will sincerely get results....

You dont have to wait till sunday...

Whether your in church or not , The spirit is available 24/7...

Peace and Blessings
Scott Johnson
2:12 am
10/02/09

VERBAL VITAMIN 4 ... MEET YOUR ENEMY

2009-10-03T18:59:00.001-05:00

1 Peter 5:8

Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:

As I gave you the link to discover Jesus in a new light , I will also give you the link to discover your enemy in a new light...

I encourage you to also do your research.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Devil_in_Christianity

There ya go...

As I was reading the different views and beliefs on Satan I realized that everyone has a different view of the "Devil"....

In the same way I tell you that God is all around us , Through LOVE and Nature and Kindness and the purity of children...Where you see LOVE , You see GOD.

The same can be said for the enemy , Where you see HATE and FEAR , You see the devil...

T.D. Jakes said we as humans are the physical manifestation of God's Righteousness...

So this leads me to believe that when we see Hate or extreme Ignorance from a human being , That would be the physical manifestation of the Devil's evil...

Make sense?

Look at Chi-Town right now and all of the murders that the youth are apart of...

THAT is the physical manifestation of Hate and Ignorance...

No matter your interpretation of Satan or what you think he looks like or whether or not he even exists , One FACT cannot be refuted.

We are in an everyday battle between good and evil that takes place within our minds...

ephesians 6 :12

For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high [places].

I will go into more detail about this in the coming days , I first wanted to introduce you to the players in the Power struggle that humanity is involved in.

Before I go I want to tell you of a dream I had a couple years ago.

I wont give you the full version , Just what matters...

I dreamed I had met this dude outside and we ended up in my lil studio because he needed to use my computer...The computer would not work and I was telling him something about the devil did not want me online...Then I typed in a web adress and I woke up...

As soon as I woke up , I rushed back to my computer , turned it on and typed in the adress I had seen in my dream...

Believe it or not , The link was an actual site.
The first words I saw..SEEK AND YE SHALL FIND.

Yes ,I am saying that... GOD gave me a website in a dream.

SO , I have been led to share that website with all of you , to assist you in your own studies.

here it is...

http://www.biblelookup.com/

The Lord works in mysterious ways...
This is one thing you will find out if you truly start walking with Christ...
EVERYDAY IS AN ADVENTURE.

You ever done a crossword puzzle and when you finally get that word thats been bugging you , You kick yourself?

Why? Because it was in front of you all along and you just could'nt see it....

Peace and God Bless
Scott Johnson
www.scottjohnsononline.com

10/01/09
5:34 AM

VERBAL VITAMIN 3 ... HEY G ! You More G than Jesus?

2009-10-03T18:58:00.001-05:00

"The gospels demonstrate that Jesus, a charismatic leader regarded as a potential troublemaker, was executed on political charges."

Where the militants at? Raise a fist and show respect...

It would be irresponsible and ignorant of myself to ask you to just trust me that Jesus Christ is our Lord...

Irresponsible , due to the fact that I come here telling you that I will tell you the truth and do not give you proper information to make a decision for yourself...

That might be mistaken as me trying to take advantage of the people...I am not here to take advantage of anyone , Rather I am here to get you to realize YOU have advantages and untapped power through Jesus Christ.

AND it would be ignorant of me to assume anyone would blindly follow what I am telling you.

I will also never ask you to do anything I havent done or am willing to do myself....

So , with that being said , I would like YOU to read what I just read...

This is the diary of Jesus Christ..You think you know...But you have no idea.

For those of you in the south....You think you know...But you have no idea Patna...

For those of you in the east...You think you know...But you have no idea son...

I dont know if this link will be converted or not , SO if it's not , Please copy and paste it into your favorite browser...

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jesus_christ

Up above is an unbiased report on Jesus Christ...

I say unbiased because if I was trying to steer you in a certain direction , I could have easily pasted the parts I want you to know.

But no sir/mam...We seek truth , DO we not?

So follow the link and read the history , the contrasting views , the different religious views , The truth...

Get to know the man from a perspective you may have not previously known him by...

Then start talking to him...Building that PERSONAL relationship.

Like I said , I could copy and paste and quote and give YOU what I want YOU to read..
But all your doing then is absorbing what I feel is best for you....

There is aJapanese proverb that reads..

"Tell me - I will forget - Show me-I may remember-BUT INVOLVE ME and I WILL UNDERSTAND"

Do your research...Dont tell me you don't have time...In between Youtube videos and updating your status and taking quizzes...Get Involved.

Always do your research , Make sure what people are telling you is legit.
But ya'll already knew that right :)

Something came to me while I was reading on Christ....

If you believe all of this is made up , I have to challenge you from another angle now...I gotta new trail while reading...

Do you have any idea how genius you would have to be to make up the entire bible?

Things written over 2000 years ago still have relevance to our lives today...
Timeless knowledge is contained in these 66 books...
I know the Bible has been translated to this and that and easy to read and they even had a "Ghetto" version out at one point...

The wording may have gotten more eloquent or easier to read over the years but the core of it remains the same...

DOTH THOU FOLLOW ME?

10 years ago many of us thought the world was ending when the clock struck midnight in America.

So.....DO I even need to finish that?

How can something hold up and still be relevant that was written THAT many years ago?

The poetry-The life lessons-The knowledge and Wisdom concerning every issue that we face as a human race is included in this book....Consider the level of Psychology the authors would have to have... were supposed to be so "Evolved" yet we cant replicate something this timeless today...

All I am saying is , If it's fake , The dudes who wrote it originally were super genius and had vision none of us have seen....

Lastly ...

I wanna speak on emulation.

Alot of youth love to act like their favorite emcee or some prefer to be their favorite angry/depressed rocker .... You love rebellion ...

SOOOOOOO Many on the streets have the mentallity that if someone has been to prison or is in a gang or is extremely violent that they are idols...WHY?

What kills me is rappers make music describing a lifestyle they USED to live ( SOME OF THEM) to people living that lifestyle currently ...BUT , The rappers who claim to be so street , now have bodyguards and buisness to run...They are making huge profits and living a lifestyle that you more than likely wont...

You think they are going to risk their investments and actually do what they say?
and sometimes these dudes actually DO what they say and throw everything they have been blessed with away....When keeping it real goes wrong...

So these cats provide a soundtrack of violence and hate and ignorance and preach materilism and brag nonstop about how they will kill you -your crew and then bang your boo and then ..hop back in that black benz.. on 22's...and drop 100 thou on a peice of jewlery...etc...Need more info ? Turn on your radio.

While the listener is actually LIVING it...Their friends are actually dying , they are actually feeling the pain of this 'Scarface' Mentallity....They are dropping out of school and enrolling into the penal systems...While the rapper gets rich preaching a false and ignorant doctrine...They are false idols , Modern day golden cows.

Point is , their is a mentallity that intelligence is weak and that love is soft.

And when someone mentions JESUS to you , Your mental image is automatically that of the hollywood Jesus and the times you went to church and was bored out of your mind and anything else that is weak , You associate with christians or Love....

This is why I encourage you to read the history up above and I challenge you to show me where he was weak...

This man was EXECUTED for going against the Grain and challenging the very establshment.

READ and SEE from a different view...Forget what you have seen with the light skin and blue eyes...Research the history and get to know the man who was the definition of hardcore...YET , never through a fist.

Time to wake up ya'll.....

I've been stabbed and shot at and served 10 years probation and the majority of my friends have seen prison time...Is that enough "Street Cred" for you?

WE MUST CHANGE OUR MENTAL...

What is happening now is NOT working....

Please do your research so we can continue to progress in some way each day...

God bless
Peace
Scott Johnson

9/30/09
4:41 AM

VERBAL VITAMIN 2 ... TAKE IT PERSONAL

2009-10-03T18:57:00.001-05:00

I have a homeboy named A.P. from the group Melody Memory...I have worked with him on several tracks now and he has been instrumental in taking me to another level vocally...

Needless to say , I respect the man for his talent and his wisdom.

He was at my house one day recording some vocals and during a break in the action , we stepped outside to smoke (When I was still on that pack a day) and he said something that was profound to me..

We were discussing whether people got our messages or not and he said "Spoonfeed the baby or kill it with meat"...

Yeah...I dig that , That is heavy, That is serious to me...

This is why I love knowledge because it carves out a trail in my mind and takes me down a whole other path...This way , I am not riding the same trail mentally everyday...

Member when you were younger and had a bike and you had a certain trail you would follow or you had a place where you could jump your bike ?....A place with a lovely name like... "Suicide hill"...
Point is , You had trails and eventually you knew those trails so well they became boring from traveling them so often....

Same with your mind , You get caught up riding that same trail daily...
But when you seek wisdom or if pearls of wisdom get handed to you through conversation or reading...A new trail is made...If You go down this trail , it will lead you to other trails and other trails equal a change of scenery and a change of scenery equals excitement and before you know it, you got something to smile about again ...Amen?

So with that being said...I gotta see if your hungry... and secondly ... if you can handle solid food.

I have no cares whether I offend Church folk or not...This isnt for you , unless you want it.
Jesus Christ himself offended Church Folk ...I am speaking spirit , not religion.

I am here to speak to the Loners , the confused , the abandoned , the depressed , the heart broken...
I wanna talk to those who want something more out of their lives...
Those who are tired of the same trails...
If you are SERIOUS about taking your LIFE to another level...

If this is you , then you will continue to read , If it's not...Thanks for stopping by.
God bless you either way...

If your still with me...Let us progress

Orite...How many of ya'll believe in God?

How many talk to him on a daily basis and study his word?

How many hear his word through a church or TV or the web?

How much time do you spend with the one you believe in?

See ALOT of people will say they believe in GOD and even attend CHURCH but they don't no more know GOD than they know their neighbors...

What I am here to do is to get YOU to get personal with Christ.

I dont care how you look , what you listen to , whether or not you wear skinny jeans or dickies...
I dont care where your from , what color your skin is or whether you got boy or girl parts...
I dont care how hardcore you are or think you are or even what gang you claim....

At this particular time , what I care about is making sure YOU have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ...Once that is accomplished , Everything else will start to fall into place in your life...

I am not here to feed your ego or to tippy toe around you and make sure I dont offend you...
IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO BE HONEST AND NOT OFFEND SOMEONE...

I speak with a sense of urgency because we are all in a spiritual war for our minds and the scary thing is IS a large majority do not know they are in a battle...SO , I am here to equip you with knowledge to fight the enemy...

SO if you believe in GOD already , That's great , Lets step up our faith to another level and go to places we have yet to go...

If your interested , I encourage you to accept Christ and get to gettin with the rest of us...

If you flat out dont believe in GOD or you think I am full of feces...

Let me ask you this... WHO IS TELLING YOU THIS?

What have I said that is not positive or logical?

We all have 3 voices in our minds...GOOD-BAD-YOU

YOU must decide continuously between GOOD and BAD...

So even if you dont believe in GOD how could you argue against the Logic that we all as a human race have these same tendencies of deciding between right or wrong voices(Thoughts)? I am just telling you who Right and Wrong are...

SO again I ask You...WHO would benifit most by telling you GOD does not exist?

Yeah , Plant some flowers on that new path...

So how do you talk to GOD?

Simple...Just do it.

When and where? anytime and anyplace.

You dont need to light a candle or put on a certain robe or do any ritual to speak with the Lord...
You DO NOT need to pay a fee to talk to GOD...

You simply , TALK TO HIM.

Good morning Lord! What are we doing today? , Where are you taking me? , What does this mean? , Explain That to me? I need help here... Please be with so and so...Why am I going through this now?
Your word promised me this! I need healing for this !

and then you Thank him continuosly...Not just before you go to bed or you eat...

I'm talking...Thank you for the safe trip home , Thank you for being with so and so , Thank you I'm alive , Thank you for my kids , Thank you I dont have kids :) Thank you for a new job , thank you for this and that and everything else I dont know your apart of..Thank you for the treasures unseen..

wow
Sounds like all we do is ask and he gives and we Thank him...

This is why You give back...

Good morning Lord! Who am I talking to today? , Who needs prayer? , who needs a blessing? , who needs a word ?, who needs a friend right now? , What do you want me to do? WHat do you want to show me today? I'M HUNGRY!!!! To Bless and Be Blessed!!!!

THAT IS WALKING WITH GOD!!!! AMEN!

This is how you build a PERSONAL relationship with Christ.

This is how you start to KNOW GOD IS REAL ...
Because HE WILL talk back...

God talks to us all daily but we do not have our eyes and ears open to him...We do not recognize when God is in the situation..

He speaks to us through our Concious , Nature , friends and enemies...Songs , words , images...and even vocally from time to time ...He is everywhere for all of us at the same exact time...That Sound Crazy to you?

People dont mind worshipping Vampires these days , but the dude talm bout Jesus is crazy...Orite...

If you dont talk to God this way , If you dont get PERSONAL with him...None of this will make sense to you and even if you are a regular church goer and you do not talk with God like this , Your not getting/giving everything you can...

I first started noticing my contiual speech with GOD was legitamate rather recently...

I started noticing things that I had thought of and written down and told others about would be discussed by preachers-teachers-Psycholgist....

Point is , I hadnt watched any televised preaching in 10 years and I havent been to church in a great number of years...Yet I had the same knowledge and thoughts as the people who had been to college and had degrees in their respective fields....

I have acheived this by speaking with God daily and involving him in all areas of my life...

I found out that "IF YOU SEEK YOU WILL FIND" Is a true statement....

I challenge God , I expect from God , I believe on God and he has shown himself true to me to the point I would get on a message board and risk "My REP"...Take my cool off in front of folks....

I have been through HELL the last year...Hell...Hell my whole life...
and I know alot of you reading this have been through Hell...

So the knowledge I will give you is the direct result of some serious soul searching and convos with the Man upstairs...

It wont be pretty , I have often found you get worse before you get better...

I'm gonna say somethings you wont like , some things that make the evil within very nervous....
Were gonna travel to some dark places , But if you journey with me , I promise you , Your life will be changed ...It's gonna take sacrifice and some honest looks in the mirror...So if your honestly ready for this...In the coming days , were gonna start the journey.

If your not , That's cool ...Keep running ...You will eventually get tired...I'm just trying to save you a trip.

Orite , I just wanted to set things up and let you know what I was about and where I'm gonna take you if you keep reading these messages...

The weak and the strong and the hungry and satisfied get seperated with this...

From here on out , I will write like you can eat some steak...

If you have never accepted Jesus Christ , Very simple...

ROMANS 10: 9-13
Talk with him...DONT BE SCURRED!

In the meantime , I challenge you to read at the very minimum..1 proverb a night.

Peace and Blessings
Scott Johnson
9/29/09
3:18 am

VERBAL VITAMIN 1 ... WE NEED TO TALK

2009-10-03T18:54:00.001-05:00

Well Orite chall , This is my first public sermon...WELCOME...Let me make my way to the front...Say hello , right quick...

Hey ,how you doin?... Great to see you to!...Aww dude , Those Nikes are nice man...You look great in that black dress Mrs.Johnson...Awww you know it...Second door on the left..Seriously lol...Oh yeah? I don't know , I'm busy on tuesdays at 3...Ok , I'll holla when I'm done , The people are waiting...

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And we begin...

This is for somebody out there reading this , Because I wanted to do a whole 'Take em from the beginning' type sermon but God kept putting this scripture on my heart , So this is what I am rolling with...

MATTHEW 18:15
"If your brother sins against you , go and rebuke him in private. If he listens to you , you have won a brother"

Notice that 'GO AND REBUKE HIM IN PRIVATE'...

This isnt done anymore...The old "Lets have a man to man" or "Lady to Lady" Or "Man to Lady" "Or Lady to best friend trying to steal her man" Or "Man to homeboy who stole your Lil Jon Cd 3 years ago"

These days an audience must be involved...

Everyone on your favorite "Social Networking sites" knows you got beef...Your texting everyone...Your sending emails...Your getting drunk and talking about the situation with others who are getting drunk and then they tell there friends when they get drunk and so on and so on and so on....

And what happens here?

It escalates into something more than it needs to be...and alot of times friendships are ruined because we didnt have the courage to confront that person one on one...Naw , We needed some back up first right? We need to make sure our side of the story is not only told but told FIRST...We start the division amongst our own..Then before you know it , things cant be the same again...

Does this sound like some girl drama? Yes it does...

But dudes do it to...
The men just use harsher language....

You ever been in a situation where you sat and watched somebody do or say something wrong and instead of speaking to them about it , your making a list of people TO TELL ABOUT IT?

Yeah , You have done that...

"Maria is gonna trip out when she hears this!"

"Wow , Abdul wont believe what this cat said about him"

( Just to let ya'll know , I use all races in my name examples..Abdul digs it...why dont you?)

This is exactly what happened with Pac and BIG....

Instead of talking man to man...The audience grew and the media got involved and we lose two great emcees/ Human beings...over something that should have been handled in private...DEAD...Never again will they communicate because they did not communicate.

When you call someone out in Public , That opens the door for the demon of pride and once pride gets in...The party starts...BECAUSE , PRIDE WILL NOT ALLOW YOU TO BE BESTED...Especially by someone you know.

This happens everyday...Right now as I type this , someone is spilling buisness and spreading a fire of words...

I used to do this years ago...Just talkin about folk...I knew they were talking about me...SO I talked about them...

Then the Lord started dealing with me...I guess a spotlight was shown on me and exposed me for doing this...Made me feel like a punk to be honest with you.

So I made it a point , a concious effort , a Need ...to tell YOU if I got an issue with you and I expect YOU to tell me if you have an issue with me....

Not out in public , not on the boards , not on youtube , not with spray paint on my car door , not on bathroom stalls.....

Call whoever you have an issue with to the side..."We Need to talk"
And discuss your problem with the one causing you a problem...not everyone else.

If you do this,I guaruntee you , you will have less drama in your life and you might save a friendship.

and Trust me , The older you get , The LESS friends you got...Some of ya'll know what I'm talking about...

This also should pertain to POSITIVE things you wish to tell people but for whatever reason , you do not.

Follow your spirit when you get that feeling to compliment somebody or give them a word of encouragement.

You never REALLY understand what people are going through and those few words you say could change their entire outlook on life...

You never know when your preventing a suicide...

Speak it when you feel it to the person it pertains to...

Positive or Negative...

This concludes my first message..My first Verbal Vitamin
If you dont agree with my words or feel they don't make logical sense , please email or message me in private and give me your thoughts.

once I have your info , I'll put up notes and bulletins calling you a hater...:)

I KEED ... I KEED!

God Bless
Thanks for reading
and remember this..."Hate is Overrrrrrrrrrated"
Scott Johnson
9/28/09
3:00 AM

The Prosperous Mind.....act one

2008-11-11T23:07:00.005-06:00

Good evening and welcome to the second installment of my blog +Fragments of my mind+.

I would like to share with you all some things I have learned and exercises I practice , involving the mind.

I forewarn you that I will be taking you on a journey. So if your tired ,take a nap and come back when your rested.

Psychology is something that has always interested me.

I really get into the way we as humans behave.

The things we are capable of , Be it positive or negative really draw me in.

With that being said .......I have been a dumb ass most of my natural life.

The first half at least....:)

So, I have spent a great deal of time trying to figure out what the hell made me do the things I once did and still do some of the things I know I shouldn't.

The brain is truly fascinating if you approach it with respect.

SO , Lets get into this shall we?

I know a man by the name of Dr.Kembleton Wiggins.

He is the Father of my friends and my first music producers , Chris and Pete Wiggins.

When I was going to the studio at the time , I started talking with Dr.Wiggins.

He is a Psychologist , Pastor and Hypnotherapist......Yeah..Impressive.

He once told me that your subconcious mind controls your concious mind.

We are inevitably controlled by what is programmed into our subconcious.

I USED to have allergies real bad. I would try to record in the summer and I couldnt stop sneezing , My eyes itched horribly and my nose was either stopped up or running.

I would take Benadryl and that would end up making me sleepy to the point where I got lazy and didnt accomplish anything.

I got Claratin next and then these other alergy pills and I battled this nonsense for years.

Those with allergies KNOW ...... it sucks.

I sat down with Dr.Wiggins one day and he counted me down. (Hypnotized)

I hesitate to say full hypnosis because I was aware of what was happening.

BUT , You can relax your mind into a state and reprogram your thoughts with positive suggestions while concious and this is what the good Doctor did for me.

Dr.Wiggins put the suggestion into my subconcious mind that "I did not suffer from allergies any longer" and other positive words.

So in essence , he put a command into my subconcious.

Believe it or not , I was completely healed from allergies.

It took a lil time.

When people would ask me about my allergies (Even when I was sneezing or had watery eyes) I would tell them "I have no allergies , I have been healed! "

Eventually when my subconcious mind accepted this , it became reality.

Pretty wild huh?

Some of you reading this may think I am full of feces , But I assure you I am not.

Not this time dammit!

The mind is the most sophisticated yet simple tool we have the oppurtunity of using and if you doubt my words....Then I don't want you reading this....Go on now! Get outta here!

For those that are left , it's about to get a lil deeper , so keep swimming with me.

I also learned that I had a visual personality.

If I see something done , I can usually do it....Except dunk :(

You know how some people can play piano or guitar by ear?

Yeah...I'm not like that! Those people have more of an audio personality.

I have to see it...I have however been blessed with a very vivid imagination.

So I see things in my minds eye , already complete.

I Picture Music...I see it.

I remember faces...Not names

Some of you know what I am speaking on because your the same way.

You are also of a visual nature.

This will all make sense in a minute. :)

The next step on my journey came from a free download my wife discovered.

It was called "The Long Relax" by the silva ultramind program.

http://www.silvaultramindsystem.com/products/unlimited

This 30 minute meditation changed my life.

They use what they call the 3 to 1 method to get you relaxed.

They also play a rhythm that matches your brainwaves when your in your most relaxed state.

You are still concious of everything around you , But you are completely relaxed and your mind is open and clear to whatever suggestions you put into it.

When you come fully out of it and open your eyes , you feel completely refreshed.

I used to work the grave shift as a stocker at my friendly neigborhood H.E.B

I would listen to this on my mp3 player in the car at lunch and that got me through alot of long nights.

I would do this everynight before I went to work and like I said , sometimes during lunch.

I learned the technique and I am now able to acheive total relaxation myself .

(No Masturbation jokes please :)

This technique taught me how to relax when I wanted to and how to use positive thoughts for actual results.

ALL my life I have been a night owl. I sleep in shifts....and you may ask yourself...WHY DONT YOU RELAX A-HOLE?

Because I'm working!

But it was always the same story for me. I had a song in my head combined with thoughts about a song , prayers , worries , etc....

My body would be tired but my mind was running a marathon.

This program taught me how to filter out all of the nonsense and FOCUS on whatever issue I was addressing.

PLEASE dont think I am trying to sell anything , I am not.

I'm just telling you how I got to where I am , Besides , the thing was free.

The subconcious mind can not distinguish a joke from reality.

It knows only what you believe and that is how it operates.

So I knew from my allergy expierience that belief and positivity could work.

And I learned from Silva how to Realax and put positive suggestions into my subconcious mind.

Now we enter another Phase.......

Like I said , I am Visual.

So when I would get into my relaxed state at night, I started visualizing how I wanted my mind to look.

Everyone of us has the ability to visualize....

So I started organizing my mind.

We are all inside our own head.

EVERYTHING we do and say comes from the commands within the brain.

We are what we are between the ears...That is our home.

So why not organize it and make it work more effeciently?

I started thinking of my brain as my computer. I know this isnt a new anaolgy , but it works for me.

Our subconcious is the hardrive.

It only knows what it has been programmed to do.

I picture the inside of my head like a circular steel bunker and I have this computer in the middle which represents my subconcious. When I relax and want to run or install a new program (Positive thoughts) I load it up and save the data.

My Computer works off voice command :)

I know all of this may sound insane.....But I'm not done , There is a method to the madness.

SO here is the lesson.

Our subconcious knows what is programmed into it.

So if you constantly say your a loser or have negative thoughts of fear , depression ,Anger , etc.....

THAT is who you are or your going to become.

The subconcious cant distinguish!

All your self doubt , anxiety , worries , negative thoughts , etc..... are all stored in your harddrive and run very effeciently.

YOU ARE WHAT YOU THINK AND BELIEVE .

I know it sounds cheezy when you hear "If you beleive , you can acheive".

A large majority of our society makes fun of this.

BUT , It is the truth.

Think about it.

Our minds are capable of infinite possibilities and we let them go to waste everyday.

Think about what your mind is on or the toughts you have the majority of the time and look at your situation.

It takes balls to do that...To actually look in the mirror and confess with your lips who you really are.

BUT if you have the balls to do that and you have the desire to change your way of life.

I will proudly tell you , it is possible.

Learn to relax and replace your negative thoughts and habits with positive belief in your subconcious mind.

My routine is something like this.

I lie on my back and do the 3 to 1 method.

Take a deep breath through your nose and slowly exhale through the mouth.

while you are exhaling , visualize and repeat in your mind the number 3 , three times.

repeat the steps for 2 and 1.

(Once you get better at doing this , you can relax your entire body and mind in minutes)

Once I am completely relaxed I speak to my subconcious mind (Input the data into the harddrive)

"Subconcious mind , run a virus scan and delete all negative thoughts and emotions.

Permantly delete any and all thoughts or memories that you know I will never use.

Organize my knowledge to where I can pull it up quickly when needed and finally defragment yourself"

Then I enter in whatever positive thing I am seeking and believe on it.

(On a personal note , all this is surrounded by prayer)

You repeat to your subconcious what you want changed and start BELIEVING for the results.

Visualize yourself as who you know you really are.

Set your mind up however you wish , It's your place , decorate it.

YOU ARE WHAT YOU THINK!

REMEMBER THAT!

After reading this , it is my prayer that you will consider what you allow to go in and come out of your mind.

Replace the negative with positive and become who you were meant to be.

I read a story about a jewish girl who was captured by the germans. Every morning she woke up and washed her face and combed her hair. They asked her why she would do that when she knew they were going to kill her..She said something to the effect of "They may kill me , but they wont kill my dignity or respect for myself".....

So even in the midst of death , she carried herself in a positive manner.

So where you live or your situation is absolutely no excuse not to control your mind in a positive way.

Is thinking negative helping you? If so , sell the secret and retire young.

Being positive or smart is somehow equal to being pussy or soft in this bass ackwards country.

Those people who think like that are Fools....

Dont be a fool.

God has given you an incredible machine that you can control and turn into whatever you want it to be.

I gained this knowledge and it has helped me in my life.

So I pass it unto you in the hopes it helps you in your life....

If it does , Pass it on to someone else.

I dont write this like I am perfect and have it all figured out...I'm not and I don't , BUT , I am learning everyday and this is some of the knowledge I have learned.

YOU ARE WHAT YOU THINK.....

If you aren't who you would like to be or feel you were born to be....CHANGE YOUR THOUGHT PROCESS....

Remember.....An Idle mind is the devil's playground.

Peace and God Bless

Scott Johnson

www.scottjohnsononline.com

P.S.

Challenge yourself to read 3 proverbs a night.

That Road...

2008-10-19T22:54:00.004-05:00

Welcome to my mind....

This is my first blog and I guess I will start it off with some action , Comedy , Drama and a soundtrack .

My name is Scott Johnson and here is what has been goin on in my life recently.

As your reading this you may find yourself saying "DAMN! That dude is cursed!!" , But I assure you I am not. My Psychic told me so !

My troubles began in Late August and early September of this year we call 2008.

First off , I am a Hip-Hop Lyricist and my studio is home based.

So for all of you out there who have a home studio ,You know exactly how important your PC is...(Or Mac if your cooler than me)

Long story short , I ended up having the number one and two Viruses in the world at the same time.

VIRTUMONDE! This Virus is so damn nasty it has it's own Wikipedia page!

I started going through all of my files and into the heart of my system when I discovered that someone was using my computer as a host.

I had hundreds of software apps , movies , PC games , etc....All neatly bundled in Zip FIles.

So being an avid "Limewire" user , I figured I had caught the Virus there.

And people were downloading from me ,Like I had downloaded from so many others.

As I did further research , Some said it comes from the profile makers people go to to make profiles for the Myspace pages.

and I remembered ...MY KID WAS DOING THAT!

Dammit! This hacker took control of my entire system. He ran the show with an app called MSJuan. I battled Juan for 2 weeks straight!

#1 I didnt wanna have to redo everything I had done on my computer and #2 alot of it was foolish pride that I could outwit Virtumonde.

This Virus is so smart that it would redirect the page that allowed me to purchase software to kill it. So I am highly angered and impressed at the same time.

I am in the middle of making my sophmore album and all of my material was on the computer.

Yes , I know , I am one of them dudes who shoulda already had everything backed up.

But I WASN'T!

So on September 14th ,2008 , I went into my Dad's room to use his computer to purchase some software. By this point , Windows wouldnt even load for me.

And before I go on , I know some of you are asking yourself why the hell a grown man and his family are still living at home.

Let me answer that.

My parents divorced and my mother moved to West Virginia. I had a job , my kid , my friends and everything else here in Texas. We live in a two story house so I just stayed with my pops and moved my wife and kid in (I now have 3) . We kept the upstairs and he took over my old room downstairs.

He worked second shift and was gone from 3 pm to 1 am...So the situation worked for all of us.

Mind your damn business! :)

But back to the lecture at hand...

September 14th is the day and I am in his room getting some software. (Power suite)

He is watching a western called "The Cheyenne Social Club" , He is in a good mood , were laughing at the movie and having a good day.

I got the software and decided I would run it the next day , My wife was already pissed I was spending more time battelling Juan than I was with her :)

The day turned into night and everything was normal in my world.

I am a night owl by nature but I had promised to be in bed by midnight.

I got sucked into the Sarah Palin Revealed show on CNN , Followed by The Joe Biden Story.

Like alot of you , I am really interested in this election.

BUT , I had told myself to go to sleep.

I turned the TV off and finally dozed off around .......4am :(

About 5:30 AM my two oldest kids ran into the room and said "Dad , Someone is calling your name in the backyard".... I was just getting into the REM state and was very confused being awoken like this....

I went to the bathroom , Threw on my clothes and grabbed a weapon. ( Japanese fighting stick , It's like half of a solid wood staff)

As I was creeping down the stairs I heard some muffled yell's....

This really freaked me out....I am now looking at the backdoor to see if I can see shadows of someone outside.

The thought crossed my mind to wake up my dad , But I decided not to cause I knew he had to get up in a few hours...

So I grabbed the flashlight and walked outside. (I guess that is just the white man in me :)

I looked around and could see nothing , As I walked to the back of the house , I noticed my dad's light was on. Damn , It's almost 6 am , What the hell is he doing awake?

I walked to his room and as I approached , I heard real loud snoring....

I opened the door to discover him laying across his bed with his arms stiff.

I wasnt hearing snoring , He was trying to breath.

My father had had two previous heart attacks , So I thought that was what was going on.

I immediately rebuked Satan and started praying....I yelled for my wife to call 911!

I franticly searched for his "Nitro" pills....My mind was scrambled . I was scared and praying and trying to remain calm at the same time.

All the while he is breathing in through his mouth and blowing out forcibly through his nose.

His arms are stiff and his hands are turned inwards....I will never get that image out of my brain. I am fighting tears just describing it to you.

And because of his condition , his voice was different which made my kids think it was coming from outside.

I am praying and trying to get him to calm down some way.

The firefighters were the first on the scene....They arrived in mere minutes.

My baby is awake , My other 2 are scared , My wife is trippin out , The firemen are asking me about his medical history , My dog is wimpering at the foot of the bed , The oxygen mask doesnt seem to be helping him breath.....I am in total chaos.

The ambulance arrived and they got him in...Were all waiting on careflight to land.

I am looking in through the back glass with my hand on his foot and I am praying for God to be with him.

The medics told me to follow them to a nearby school where careflight was preparing to land.

As I follwed the ambulance I was yelling at the top of my lungs at the devil.

"NO MORE! , You are bound! Leave my family alone! " and other words I wont repeat.

I have never yelled from the gut like that in my life . I am a spiritual man and have alot of faith and once you leave Satan's click and join GOD , Times get tough with the enemy.

My dog was sick , My computer and my music was locked up by a hacker and now I am following an ambulance containing my father.

I honestly felt all of the above was a spiritual attack on me and my family.

( I really hope ya'll aint reading this like " The story was good up untill he started yelling at the devil!" I am not nuts....Well not fully.)

We arrive and the paramedics tell me they think he is bleeding in his brain.

They think he had a stroke.

As I watched the chopper fly off , The tears streamed down my face.

I had to go back and get my family so we could go to the hospital.

(Fast Forward)

September 15th ,2008

I ,my wife and kids are in the E.R.

I went back to pray with him and talk to the doctor.

The nurse showed me something that I will never forget.

She opened my dad's eyelids and one pupil was small and the other one big.

She said that really concerned her and was a possible sign of brain damage.

The Doctor came in and said he would know more once they did a MRI , But as of now , It appeared to be a stroke.

(Fast Forward)

When they finally got him into a room , My wife and I went to discover he was gone for testing.

We had some time so we went to my sister n laws house who lived close by.

I got a phone call from the Neurologist.

He explained to me that my dad had a Brain stem stroke. A little area at the base of the spine that controls damn near everything it takes for you to live.

"Doctor , Just tell me the truth , How long does he have?"

He said it was highly unlikely that he would wake up from this and if he did , He would have to be kept alive by a respirator through a trach in his throat and be kept in assisted living.

Basically the Doctor was telling my Dad was going to be a "Vegetable".

"Thank You Sir....But I am believeing on a miracle."

I hung up the phone and I was numb.

Everyone wanted to know what he said...As I explained with a shaky voice and tear stained eyes , They joined in my grief.

BUT , I got strong as I prayed.

The more I grew as a believer in Christ , The more I learned about the power you attain. One of those gifts the bible speaks on is the gift of healing.

I now knew that I had to pray for the complete restoration of his brain stem.

I called and texted everyone I knew who was a believer , Some of you reading this know what I speak of.

I was fully convinced that my dad could be restored to better than before.

There was a constant flow of traffic and prayers to my fathers room in ICU.

I gained a courage and Terminator strength I did not know was in me.

I was comforting the very people who came to comfort me!

I was convinced! I had faith! My father will open his eyes and be restored!

I belived this even when the nurses told me he wasnt going to recover and that the doctors needed to know whether to put a trach in his throat or remove him from life support.

I was convinced my Father would be healed!

I told them that if no miracle occured by Monday , I would make the choice to remove him.

I spoke that with my lips , But my heart and faith stayed CONVINCED.

There was many a great beliver who came and layed hands upon him and prayed.

I myself was stabbed 6 times times and died on the operating table in 92 in the very same hospital! So I knew the power of prayer and I KNEW that GOD could do what no doctor could.

I stayed strong at the hospital. Like I said , TERMINATOR strength!

But when I returned home at night , I would go to his room and cry like a newborn.

I dont ever recall a time in my life that I cried like that. This was a soul cry....

I stayed the night with him on a thursday , a few days before I was to make my decision.

I pulled up my chair and read him Psalm 51 and I cleared my concious of everything that I felt guilt for. I forgave him for the wrongs I felt he committed against me and I asked his forgiveness for the things I had done to him.

He was in a self induced coma , but I knew he could hear me.

I had him repeat the sinners prayer in his mind and I put headphones on him and played Beethoven. I always have heard that classical music stimulates the brain.

I prayed over him like I had never prayed before. Demanding the devil repay 7 fold what he had stolen from my dad....

And I told my dad he had to forgive my mother.

I tried to sleep but couldnt , The nurses coming in and out and his machines sounding alarms tormented me. I could not find peace anywhere.

So I prayed all night long.

About 7am , I was mentally beat.

I called my wife and as soon as I heard her voice , I just started crying.

"Please , Come pick me up , I just wanna go home....I'm So tired"

My mother was flying in from Ohio and we were supposed to pick her up that afternoon.

Thank God for my wife.

She took me home and I went to sleep , while she drove over an hour to the airport to get my mom.

I hadnt seen my mother in almost a year....I woke up , showered , hugged her and told her to come on....We had to leave.

As I drove to the hospital , She was telling me that she hated to say it , But he was going to die.

My mother works for hospice , so she sees death frequently and knew from what the doctors were saying...Her ex-husband , My Father , was about to go.

To be honest I was angry. I felt like she didnt have adequate faith. I held my tongue back from really speaking my heart and just told her...GOD IS ABLE TO DELIVER AND HEAL.

By this time , All the family and friends of my father had already came and spoke there peace with him.

Only my mother , whom he hadnt seen or spoken to in 12 years was left.

I told her to go in and make her peace with him.

My dad was very angry and resentful towards her after the divorce and I truly felt she was the last peice of the puzzle for my dad to wake up a new man In Christ.

When we walked in , She busted out in tears....

The nurse came in and did a eye reflex test on him and showed me there wasnt any response to the light.

He "assured" me my dad was already gone and that the machines were keeping him alive.

"Yes sir , I understand , I'll let you know on Monday"

I left my mother alone with my dad....She spent a good 45 minutes talking with him.

All the while , I paced back and forth on the corner , chain smoking and praying.

When she was done , She came to me and cried and said "Honey , I know he's your dad and I hate to say it ,But he's not going to live".

"Ok mom" , Didnt matter what she had to say , I knew what my God had done in my life and I knew he was able to also resurect my father.

I WAS CONVINCED!

(Fast Forward)

It is now Monday.

My wife and I arrive at Harris hospital in Ft.Worth.

Her Grandmother , mother and her husband are there.

My dad's brother and nephew are there.

The chaplain is there.

The Doctor came and told me what was about to take place and that he admired my strentgh and that I was making a merciful decision.

OK DOC...Thanks

I WAS CONVINCED!

When the nurses took the respirator out , My dad imediately started the same breathing he was doing when I discovered him.

Just a horrible snoring lke sound.

I had my mother in law take my wife out...Once she heard that sound it broke her down.

When I first asked the nurse if the people live 20 or so minutes after removing them , He replied "It could take days" DAYS? DAYS? My wifes grandmother lived for almost 2 weeks I found out. So I went into this knowing that if he did pass , It wouldn't be immediate.

Unfortunately , His brother and nephew weren't aware of this and was horrified at the news that he would breath like this until his brain realized it was over.

My Dad was truly in the hands of GOD now.

I WAS CONVINCED!

We had to leave to pick our children up from school , But when I returned later that night , I was suprised to see his brother and nephew still there.

I had shown up ready to witness a miracle.

His brother said "Is there no way to speed up the process? It's killing me to see him like this."

I was infuriated inside. I had shown up to witness life and he was speaking death.

I walked outside and told GOD , "PLEASE ,Get them out of here!"

When I went back in , I told them I would be there and when and if he passed I would immediately call. "Ya'll gotta long drive , Go Home ,I got it.."

As they talked to the nurse , I went outside again until they had gone.

When I went back , I closed the curtain again and began praying and reading scripture to him.

"Dad , You GOTTA WAKE UP BUDDY! Open your eyes!!!!"

It was killing me inside to hear him breathing like that and by this time I had learned what the numbers on the machine meant.

His oxygen level was going into the red and his heartrate also.

I prayed and prayed and the numbers kept fluctuating.

I could only imagine how dry my fathers throat was. He hadn't had a drop of water in a week.

I had brought a glass dropper with me and filled it with water.

I put it in his mouth and gave him a drink....

What next lord? Ice chips!

My dad's tongue was swollen from having the tubes in his throat and it made logical sense to me that if I reduced the swelling , He would be able to breath easier.

So i rubbed ice chips on his tongue while I prayed.

I had to get that swelling down!

The nurse came in to clean him up , So I stepped back outside.

"GOD , I dont know what else to do...."

The Lord spoke and told me to go home , It was his turn to work.

I felt extremely lost and vulnerable.

I walked back to his room knowing that I would completely leave him in GOD's hands.

I prayed a little more and kissed his forehead.

I dropped to my knees and released my Father to my Father.

I washed my hands and walked out.

Now I was questioning how CONVINCED I was....

That was one of the hardest things I have ever encountered. As much As I believe in GOD , Giving him COMPLETE control of a situation was extremely hard.

The next day , my wife and I arrive to sign paperwork to have my dad transported to a hospice closer to my house.

As we were leaving , My wife and I prayed , Kissed my dad and said "We'll see you in a few minutes".

The hospice was going to call when they got him in the room , so we went home.

Around 5 pm , September 23rd ,2008 Hospice called and said...

"Mr.Johnson , I am so sorry , But your Father has passed away. He started having complications on the way here and died about a minute after we got him inside"....

"OK , Were on our way"

I sat down on the bathroom floor and cried.

My mother , wife and myself went to the hospice.

He was in a room on the bed.

My mother was crying her eyes out and apolagizing "We had some good years...We had some good years...."

My wife and I held each other.

I asked for a few minutes alone.

I thanked my father for being who he was and raising me into a man.

My goal has always been to make it through my music and buy him a house , classic car ,etc...

I felt great remorse because I couldnt do that now.

As my tears annointed his face , I said my good bye.

On the way home ,We witnessed a glorious sunset.

Later that night , I started going through stuff in his room.

I found a box of pictures from the 80's.

My "CONVINCED" was now "CONFUSED".

I couldnt fathom why GOD would raise me from the dead and give me another oppurtunity at life , but he wouldnt raise my father.

"Why did I even pray Lord? What is the purpose of saying we have power to heal in your name if it still boils down to your will?"

I was angry.

As I opened the box , The first picture was a picture of my dad when he was 11 or 12.

I stared at his eyes.... looking at them in the hospital , they were now tattooed on my brain.

The following pics began to tell a story.

This man wasnt even my biological father. Though I considered him as such.

Those 80's pics revealed a time when I was kid and he was a new Husband and Father.

He was Truly happy and him and my mother were Truly in love.

I saw a pic of Christmas 83.

I saw how excited he was to give me my first puppy.

I saw the little boy who was so excited to have the latest Star wars figures and G.I Joe toys.

I saw all of us , when Life was simple and pure.

Then the lord spoke to me and said ," You question my will, But never questioned his...."

As I wiped the tears away , I started thinking and remembering my father in a whole new light.

When your a kid , You dont consider or appreciate what your parents go through to raise you.

But now that I look at him through eyes of a man...I see things differently.

I saw that he battled depression and was never the same after the love of his life left him.

I saw the bottles of aleve he took to ease the pain .

He was a machine repair mechanic and his hands constantly hurt.

He was also an artist and couldnt really draw anymore because of the pain.

I remembered how angry he would get when we discussed politics and how he hated the current government.

I knew how he felt about certain management at his job.

I knew of the bills and constant stress and working basically for nothing....After you paid those bills and taxes.

I knew his life consisted mainly of work and TV and the computer.

He wasnt happy here , Physically or mentally.

I remembered how GOD opened the door and gave me the courage a couple weeks before he died to tell him he needed to let go of my mother and the anger and stress and realize he was in a spiritual battle.

I then realized that as much as my father loved us , He was not a happy man.

GOD spoke again and said

" Do not feel guilt over not being able to buy him things on earth , You helped the man's soul receive salvation and there is nothing money could by that can compare to that...Scott , You repaid him more than you could ever realize."

I put the pictures back in the box and apolagized to GOD.

I wrote my first ever speech and delivered it at my Dad's funeral.

The preacher said it was the first time anyone had preached a sermon before him.

(Fast Forward)

It is now October 20th , 2008 , 2:00 am

Yesterday it was exactly 3 weeks since I buried my Dad.

I will admit though that the minutes seem like days and 3 weeks feels like 3 years.

I caught myself turning the porch light on for him....

I catch myself crying over certain ninja like memories that sneak in and attack my mind.

I am now walking on a road that unfortunately everyone of us will travel one day.

Through all of this , I have kept my faith.

To be Honest , I really cant explain what's going on with me.

I have always been the type to keep going. Terminator right?

I am also the type of man who sincerely tries to learn from his mistakes.

So please learn from what I have learned.

When you have the oppurtunity to speak , Do it.

Even if you know that the conversation might not be good. Get it out of you while you can.

Words are being put on your heart for a reason.

Dont ever keep resentment in your heart , It will eat you alive.

Tell the ones you love that YOU LOVE THEM.

Get your priorities straight...GOD ,Family , Then you.

I told my father goodnight at 1 am....4 or so hours later , He would never open his eyes again.

8 Days later , His spirit left this earth.

Time and death do not respect you.

The bible says to be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord.

Although it may sound cliche , I know my dad is in a better place.

But that doesnt completely ease the pain I am going through.

But I will maintain and I will survive. Through faith , Love and lessons learned...I am a better man.

It is now my turn to walk on THAT ROAD.

As I mentioned earlier , Some of you reading this stood by me throughout the whole ordeal with your thoughts and your prayers. You know who you are and once again I thank you and I love you.

You find out who is really down for you during times like this and I am blessed to have some great family and friends. Thank you all and may God Bless you.

The man who is producing my next album moved to California to attend college.

After he left , his brother came by and dropped off a new external harddrive filled with the remaing tracks for the album.

(When I met him I gave him a soundcard and this is how he repaid me.)

So with that software I got that day in my dad's room and the external drive , I was able to save my music and other things taht are important to me to fulfill what it is I feel I am here for.

I started from scratch and no longer "Download" freemusic :)

and I keep my kids off of certain sites.

I am now able to take my emotions and put them on paper and creatively express everything I am going through.

So expect to hear the best I have ever given.

The Lord works in mysterious ways....

My dog had gotten the mange and he looks like the dog from Resident evil....Pray for him ya'll!

As I sit in my Fathers chair and type out my heart from his computer , I pray that my words and my expierience will touch you in a positive way.

Believe it or not , This was the short version of my story. lol

Someday I will put all of this in a book , every detail I can remember.

There are two sets of footprints on this road I am walking.....

Death has brought forth life.....

Thank you for reading.

May God Bless you and yours.

Love and Respect each other...It's not that hard.

In Loving Memory of James Warren Evans.

Sincerely ,

Scott Johnson